Dejavu thats what happened to me today.
Had breakfast with my pal Han and had a long talk about after As and other relevant stuff.
After that went for the wake. It was really sad, though i did not know Mdm very well. I am so grateful for what the parents* of the choir family have done for the generations that learned under their legacy. I guess a part of me was being evil, trying to devise horrid reasons why people did not turn up and why people were actually there. That part of me deserves to die honestly. People have their own reasons regardless, and we must not be naive, but trusting and loving. (Read about Han's trust in www.lauhan-loong-blogspot.com) For me personally, i love this family* and so i will contribute in the least possible way i can, even if it means burning precious time. Ok im really not blaming anyone here, just that one thing someone said to me got to me. "why isnt everyone here?"
I guess thats life isnt it? People would always choose their owns paths eventually, God bless them whatever paths they have chosen, but when the call is made, how many would return? Once again, individual decision has no fault, its just reality check, how many people would die for their country as an example? How many? I can tell u this for sure, not everyone. So dont be naive, its reality, painful and angry as i feel, it is Not Right for Me to feel this way. Simply because, i am the master of no one but myself. Why is it we have crime and political backstabbings in business and even in the area of school teaching? Why is it such bad stuff exist? Satan? Must be...But i dunno...Just hold steadfast to what u believe and be true to yourself, whatever decisions we make, is our own choice, our own consequences to enjoy* in the future.
Dont mind me, im just merely commenting on the possible/potential existence of splinters in other people's eye when i have a gigantic tree trunk in my own.
Sigh life's just not perfect isnt it? No ones perfect, but i really do try to see the gd side of people and not the bad, however in some cases seriously KNN. Its just so freaking blatant, dont mind me, just that one of my best friends got played. So why would anyone choose to play somebody?
Is it the evil that lurks inside them? The thrill of it or what? Or is it mistaken identity of love that i so cannot see? Perharps, i ve nvr tasted the sweet necter of it before. So freaking pissed off now....Do whats right do whats right do whats right...so easy to talk so hard to do...why would anyone try to play someone?
Im not afraid, all players out there who hate me? Just bring it. Or if it discomforts you reading this, u ve come to the wrong blog, and can just bugger off.
I think after today, really. I see ur/people's true colours, thats apt. Reality is not pretty, its tough and hard, but all in all, believe in urself and ur own core values. Be mature about all situations and fight the good fight in life.
Maybe we should all do what the powerpuff girls sing*
"Love love love love love love love love love makes the world go round"
But in conclusion "You reap what you sow"
