After wed practice, i think i ve learned a thing or two from the teachers =)
B4
1) One and a half weeks from SYF
2) Our dynamics were not there
3) Our claps for Kari were horrid
4) We did perform that piece before
5) What does that show? Not being responsible? Not focusing? Not giving? Inconsistency?
Yeah, i really really wanted to slaughter them after practice during debrief. I really dont want the situation where people die just because others are not willingly to go the distance. I will not tolerate such nonsense from young adults.
And yet.
Encourage, and be firm.
My emotions nearly broke loose that day, thank heavens i didnt get a chance to debrief. Im sure a lot of people feel the same way that i did or maybe more. Heck thats just an assumption which i put a heck load of faith and trust on. I guess i ve been aiming for the wrong vision, Gold with honours. That is really the wrong aim. Guitar and dance got GWH, kudos to them , but Ishould not be affected. I mean, always look a the big picture, at the end of the day, what does the choir stand for? GWH? Always being the best for awards and recognition?
Truely, I learned a valuable lesson on wed, and that is to trust more. If God decides to teach the choir a lesson through defeat for SYF, who can stop his will? Tell me honesltly? Who can? So be it, after that, do we mourn and hang our heads low, do we indulge in tears, self pity, emo the rest of the year away? HECK NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!
WE WILL PICK OURSELVES UP AND GIVE EVEN MORE SO TO GIVE FOR EACH OTHER AND MAKE BEAUTIFUL MUSIC TOGETHER, WE WILL FORGE BONDS THAT WILL LAST US A LIFETIME AND TRUELY REPRESENT THE CCA THAT WE LOVE* BY BEING LIVING EXAMPLES OF MEN AND WOMEN OF STRENGTH!! WE WILL PERSERVE THROUGH HARDSHIPS AND EMERGE EVEN IF NOT VICTORIOUS, AS A TEAM. THIS IS NOT A SPORTS CCA, BUT WE DESPERATELY NEED EACH OTHER, WHO CAN STAND ALONE IN CHOIR?? WHO CAN?!!!!!!??????
After some self reflection, i just want everyone to go through this stepping stone SYF, and come out after singing with the mindset "We ve done all that we can possibly do, the rest is in God's hands." No regret, no livng in the past. And if we have done our best, which has no standard ranking such as Gold, GWH, etc, the results do no matter. In this period of time, friendship is so so so so so so so so so very important. Individual want too, no one can ever force you to feel passion and hunger for it so badly that it just burns deep in our heart.
No more stressing abt the results, we just go in, give all we got, enjoy singing together, and leave the rest up to God.
However.
God helps those who help themselves*
And that is where i put my trust in from today onwards. All choir members will not fail in giving to each other and supporting each other in singing, this is not an assumption, this is reality. No more separation of J1 and J2, we are a team.
I just hope that everyone will leave choir one fateful day, as men and women of passion, integrity and love.
And most importantly, as friends =)
Heres some food for thought, though it may seem familar =)
Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.
Amen.
God bless the Acjc choir =)
