Well it was a great week end i must say =)
Performed with the Indian at the esplanade where we did knockin on Heaven's door and the scientist by coldplay. Hanah hanah we werent that gd but HEY at least we tried right? haha hopefully when we have AMPLE time to practice and no longer infected by tekong cough and flu we ll be a whole lot better...
Then after that Me han Xin Ian Eileen hairy chest and penguin went to chill out at DXO. Freak lar, i really really really tried damn hard not to drink but....aiya its their fault lar...BO TA BO LAM PA..so have to be a man lar, just freaking chug it down. Ok ok bad excuse anyway compromise a bit, cut down first just like my vulgarities then im sure things will work out from there. Its really nice to have friends around you to take ur mind off stuff which i wont say lar, but yeah lar those kind of stuff its just not healthy. Anyways next week we re gonna Intro Xingay to clubbing finally!! Woohoo exciting!! i bet cfm got a lot of girls want him lar, how zai ippt Gold three times, somemore got gymmed up body. Hahah, cant wait.
Sat, went for choir where i got kinda pissed off cause some junior was owning my ass in singing of a score. Sounds lame? Yeah but it kinda sucks when u dont know the score as well as the person on ur right or left. Somemore alumni leh, paisehhhh. Somemore my brain wasnt working well cause i failed to memorise the notes properly. I really dont know if tour is possible anymore, lack of tickets, sigh that was like my number one goal this year. But we ll see lar we ll see, God willingly im sure it ll all work out =). Yeah choir was refreshing lar, especially when i told someone i forgot liao, i come to choir to sing for God, not to impress people with my dressing. True what right or not??
After that had lunch with Xiang Pui Han Bo Yao and Xingay, it was good where we just talked cock, really cock, girls the usual guy stuff. HAH!! I didnt drink beer with them ok!! Played pool where somehow Xiang Pui just kept saying me so horny in his high pitched voice for some stupid reason, lol it was damn funny!!
At night went to pines for drinks and smoke, not me lar of course. We had a nice chat among me Han Bo Yao and Xingay, and yeah laughing about more stuff. Sadly Bo Yao got shocked by the clubbing culture cause his standards for girls are freaking high..Anyway dont worry lar man, u really have to come see for yourself.
Went church today and it was super refreshing, i dont know why but this year i decided to out more time into God and its really been paying off =). So yeah guys dont forget to stop praying =).
A LEVEL RESULTS ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
Im putting all my chances into God, trust in him to decide whats best for me and my hopes and desires. Join me guys =)
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
The gd life is the life i live*
Woo hoo sweeee ahhhhh!!!!!! Booked out early this week =)
Its been an interesting week in army, got to fire real bullets and learn interesting lessons. Freak man why never get the marksman sia, shoot until how well lar. Of course there were one or two blur cocks really...live bullets somemore....fools..
Hey i cursed less this week lol, thats an improvement =) Wanted to go clubbing this weekend haha, but lacking the energy, money and plus recovery time shit man. At least im not going to drink, its been going well so far, no thirst yet*
What my p.s said is really true lar, whatever u want to do in life, do it well and as long as u put ur mind and heart into it, sure can one. Of course ur attitude must be fished up too lar.
I guess i really thank God, that in my life, i have really learned from the best....The best what do i mean from that? Not people who are really the freaking number one in their professsion, but rather extremely passionate in what they do. Their own beliefs, morals, set of values whatever. Example my friends, people who have fallen and picked themselves up, people who live not to inspire not to gain recognition, but to help others and bring out the best in them. To help us grow up lar basically. How ever fished up people may seem to be, u can always learn whether indirectly of directly lessons from them. Even the smallest thing possible, such as self control, like for example my bed buddy, he sleeps with his gf often as in same bed, but still able to keep himself pure* As in no sex lar, he isnt a Christian, but he still is responsible to know the consequences of underage sex and the risks of a baby. It may seem easy lar, but honestly if it was u? How? I really really admire him....damn....
In choir, i guess i nvr ever thought i would learn anything much really. through music i have learnt a lot, through my juniors i have learned fishing a lot.
Aiya so lor so fish lar, i think u guys know what i mean. It just the lessons u learn daily, cfm plus chop stamp u will benefit, but of course theres the danger of learning the bad along with the good lar....Take me for example, freaking vulgarities.
Maybe thats cause im a guy whose easily influenced lar.
Suck thumb..
Carry on folks, own time own target.
We all change but old habits die hard. Share ur food with me guys =)
Its been an interesting week in army, got to fire real bullets and learn interesting lessons. Freak man why never get the marksman sia, shoot until how well lar. Of course there were one or two blur cocks really...live bullets somemore....fools..
Hey i cursed less this week lol, thats an improvement =) Wanted to go clubbing this weekend haha, but lacking the energy, money and plus recovery time shit man. At least im not going to drink, its been going well so far, no thirst yet*
What my p.s said is really true lar, whatever u want to do in life, do it well and as long as u put ur mind and heart into it, sure can one. Of course ur attitude must be fished up too lar.
I guess i really thank God, that in my life, i have really learned from the best....The best what do i mean from that? Not people who are really the freaking number one in their professsion, but rather extremely passionate in what they do. Their own beliefs, morals, set of values whatever. Example my friends, people who have fallen and picked themselves up, people who live not to inspire not to gain recognition, but to help others and bring out the best in them. To help us grow up lar basically. How ever fished up people may seem to be, u can always learn whether indirectly of directly lessons from them. Even the smallest thing possible, such as self control, like for example my bed buddy, he sleeps with his gf often as in same bed, but still able to keep himself pure* As in no sex lar, he isnt a Christian, but he still is responsible to know the consequences of underage sex and the risks of a baby. It may seem easy lar, but honestly if it was u? How? I really really admire him....damn....
In choir, i guess i nvr ever thought i would learn anything much really. through music i have learnt a lot, through my juniors i have learned fishing a lot.
Aiya so lor so fish lar, i think u guys know what i mean. It just the lessons u learn daily, cfm plus chop stamp u will benefit, but of course theres the danger of learning the bad along with the good lar....Take me for example, freaking vulgarities.
Maybe thats cause im a guy whose easily influenced lar.
Suck thumb..
Carry on folks, own time own target.
We all change but old habits die hard. Share ur food with me guys =)
Saturday, February 23, 2008
One bad day*
Army's been taxing.
Although field camp was kinda fun, shouting vulgarities at my friends sure as hell did not make me feel gd. But still, thanks to my platoon for understanding why i had to fuck them left right centre at times.
Life is never as easy as it sounds, we all fall down, last night some guy from mdc told me that i failed the first auditions..That literally killed all of my plans for army career, actually more of tour. Guess i now have to suck thumb and figure out another route. U know some situations where u have ur friends conflicting with each other at times, yeah with only two book out days, i hope u guys understand why i cant spend time with ur every week.
Fuck lar, guess i really am a person who cant take defeat after all, freaking bad feeling.
Sighhh...
How time flies, two more weeks to my pass out parade, and the latter i ll leave it in God's hand. I dont want to like my sergeants said, serve two years then fuck off, i wanna grow and become a better person, to excel in something new, like learn a new skill or something.
Whatever it is i better stop drinking every book out too.
So how now brown cow?
Guess it time to wake up my fucking idea and live my life as i want it.
But fuck lar how...cb knn. Hmm yeah, gonna learn how to play the guitar in army, yeah that ll be great. Cb still feeling shitty from the mdc thing kns, ah fuck it lar, u cant be good in life at everything that u know how to do.
Ok ok, last post with vulgarities, promise ok. No more drinking every bookout, i wont touch a drop of alcohol till POC. Damn thats kinda hard.
Takes my mind of things i shouldnt be thinking of 24 hrs while in army.
Its just not healthy. Like Bong said last night, its just chance. But being an impatient bugger though, i guess thats one hard lesson for me.
Kiss me, out on the milky twilight* Sorry for never being able to make time for u....Pretty fucker of me, yes, sorry.
So God pls help me.
Although field camp was kinda fun, shouting vulgarities at my friends sure as hell did not make me feel gd. But still, thanks to my platoon for understanding why i had to fuck them left right centre at times.
Life is never as easy as it sounds, we all fall down, last night some guy from mdc told me that i failed the first auditions..That literally killed all of my plans for army career, actually more of tour. Guess i now have to suck thumb and figure out another route. U know some situations where u have ur friends conflicting with each other at times, yeah with only two book out days, i hope u guys understand why i cant spend time with ur every week.
Fuck lar, guess i really am a person who cant take defeat after all, freaking bad feeling.
Sighhh...
How time flies, two more weeks to my pass out parade, and the latter i ll leave it in God's hand. I dont want to like my sergeants said, serve two years then fuck off, i wanna grow and become a better person, to excel in something new, like learn a new skill or something.
Whatever it is i better stop drinking every book out too.
So how now brown cow?
Guess it time to wake up my fucking idea and live my life as i want it.
But fuck lar how...cb knn. Hmm yeah, gonna learn how to play the guitar in army, yeah that ll be great. Cb still feeling shitty from the mdc thing kns, ah fuck it lar, u cant be good in life at everything that u know how to do.
Ok ok, last post with vulgarities, promise ok. No more drinking every bookout, i wont touch a drop of alcohol till POC. Damn thats kinda hard.
Takes my mind of things i shouldnt be thinking of 24 hrs while in army.
Its just not healthy. Like Bong said last night, its just chance. But being an impatient bugger though, i guess thats one hard lesson for me.
Kiss me, out on the milky twilight* Sorry for never being able to make time for u....Pretty fucker of me, yes, sorry.
So God pls help me.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
HAPPY CNY EVERYONE =)
CNY.....
Well it was fun while it lasted.
Freaking 180 bucks on alcohol on one night between the four of us, awesome.
Won 250 bucks on blackjack woohoo!!
Caught up with old friends and had some funky time.
Perharps, i should really really cut down my swearing and drinking.
Like Ian's Hiatus, maybe. Change is very hard but not impossible, with the right reasons too, it is even more possible.
Knn, army sure as hell doesnt help..
Anyway heard this song from my cousins, thought it was uber cute lol.
Enjoy =)
Well it was fun while it lasted.
Freaking 180 bucks on alcohol on one night between the four of us, awesome.
Won 250 bucks on blackjack woohoo!!
Caught up with old friends and had some funky time.
Perharps, i should really really cut down my swearing and drinking.
Like Ian's Hiatus, maybe. Change is very hard but not impossible, with the right reasons too, it is even more possible.
Knn, army sure as hell doesnt help..
Anyway heard this song from my cousins, thought it was uber cute lol.
Enjoy =)
Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on
Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day(Oooh.. a holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Try to be
a better Christian.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Now u know*
GOD MADE TEACHERS . . .
God understood our thirst for knowledge,
and our need to be led by someone wiser;
He needed a heart of compassion, of encouragement, and patience;
Someone who would accept the challenge regardless of the opposition;
Someone who could see potential and believe in the best in others . . .
So He made Teachers
And thats you =)
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Army army!!* Han's night*
After last night's freaking g-ed up bbq.
The sausages, the lamb, the chicken wings, the crayfish, the mash potatoes and salad. I think everyone felt so so full. Lol best events of that night were Han's attempt to do a striptease, Wei Ting's convo abt her chest hair and the awesome stories from everyone. Ooooooo Kiat looked oh so cutre in his school uniform HAHAHAHHAHAH.
Shit man i cant believe u joined CF, haha, oh well keep us army boys in ur prayers!!! =) Ur so hot Kiat hahah, with ur uber PSLE score and ur class monitor status =).
Although i think Ian has a thing or two to say abt that haha. Ahh jk jk we all love u man haha.
I guess i ll miss my civilian life after going into army, but then again, im really looking forward to it. Somehow, i look forward to making new friends and having a blast there, with all the new cockster people and all the shit that is cfm going to happen. But still, the show must go on!!!
Somehow i dont think people are gonna think im pes C material.
My evidence as presented by various people.
Walking outside california fitness club
Some guy called Alex, a staff of the gym, ''Excuse me sir u look very muscular, would you be interested in joining us??''
In Japan when i bought my black converse shoes, the sales guy who brought me the shoes to try and couldn't speak proper english, ''Gym!! Gym!!'' Points at me.
Buying essentials at beach road today.
The uncle ''Eh you how old ah? 20 is it?''
Me ''Eh no im 18''
Uncle ''Wahhh u so big size i thought u twenty ah''
Me ''haha eh nope im only 18 yeap''
Uncle '' U what? Pes one is it?''
Me '' Eh nope pes C beacause of my ankle''
Uncle ''Wahhhhhhhh'' Talks to his fellow uncle ''This one Pes C ah''
Both uncles ''Wahhhh, etc etc etc''
Ian was oh so jealous hahaha, but then again when it comes to certain night*events. he just kicks my ass so hard. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, u da man u da man.
With all the ruggers and sports people with injuries all going into pes C, i think its really a joke as compared to pes A people.
Ah well, but im not hear to talk abt Ian!!! The dog has had his moment...
Han Loong man, this ones for you.
Well, getting to know you after prelims was really a blessing. Haha, for all the advice and other stuff that u helped me with, i guess i can never really thank you enough. Oh oh, for all the late night adventures we had also, not in the gay sense of course, like the arena, when i was puking my guts out lol. Yeah thanks man.
I guess it was u who helped me grow up even more after my college choir days, when i needed some form of direction. Always the mature one, who geve me insights that i nvr thought i knew or had. Yeah, ur like a brother i nvr had man. Though i must also say u helped to influence my liver to become stronger haha, well i ll take that as a skill gained hahah.
Like u said all that has happened in the past months has really been nuthin more than a blessing in disguise. Oh yeah thanks for introducing me to Paramore too man, ownage!!!!! Oh plus all my girl* problems too, yeah though ur advice gave me really really powerful dreams, i must say they were interesting lar hahaha.
Anyway, i look forward to CNY parties!!! Which i know u ll organise and etc cause U ARE OUR DJ!!!! LOL..
Somehow u have the same effect as Ian in a way..
Everytime i think abt our friendship and the bright future with flashign lights and loud music, i always think of this phrase.
The sausages, the lamb, the chicken wings, the crayfish, the mash potatoes and salad. I think everyone felt so so full. Lol best events of that night were Han's attempt to do a striptease, Wei Ting's convo abt her chest hair and the awesome stories from everyone. Ooooooo Kiat looked oh so cutre in his school uniform HAHAHAHHAHAH.
Shit man i cant believe u joined CF, haha, oh well keep us army boys in ur prayers!!! =) Ur so hot Kiat hahah, with ur uber PSLE score and ur class monitor status =).
Although i think Ian has a thing or two to say abt that haha. Ahh jk jk we all love u man haha.
I guess i ll miss my civilian life after going into army, but then again, im really looking forward to it. Somehow, i look forward to making new friends and having a blast there, with all the new cockster people and all the shit that is cfm going to happen. But still, the show must go on!!!
Somehow i dont think people are gonna think im pes C material.
My evidence as presented by various people.
Walking outside california fitness club
Some guy called Alex, a staff of the gym, ''Excuse me sir u look very muscular, would you be interested in joining us??''
In Japan when i bought my black converse shoes, the sales guy who brought me the shoes to try and couldn't speak proper english, ''Gym!! Gym!!'' Points at me.
Buying essentials at beach road today.
The uncle ''Eh you how old ah? 20 is it?''
Me ''Eh no im 18''
Uncle ''Wahhh u so big size i thought u twenty ah''
Me ''haha eh nope im only 18 yeap''
Uncle '' U what? Pes one is it?''
Me '' Eh nope pes C beacause of my ankle''
Uncle ''Wahhhhhhhh'' Talks to his fellow uncle ''This one Pes C ah''
Both uncles ''Wahhhh, etc etc etc''
Ian was oh so jealous hahaha, but then again when it comes to certain night*events. he just kicks my ass so hard. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, u da man u da man.
With all the ruggers and sports people with injuries all going into pes C, i think its really a joke as compared to pes A people.
Ah well, but im not hear to talk abt Ian!!! The dog has had his moment...
Han Loong man, this ones for you.
Well, getting to know you after prelims was really a blessing. Haha, for all the advice and other stuff that u helped me with, i guess i can never really thank you enough. Oh oh, for all the late night adventures we had also, not in the gay sense of course, like the arena, when i was puking my guts out lol. Yeah thanks man.
I guess it was u who helped me grow up even more after my college choir days, when i needed some form of direction. Always the mature one, who geve me insights that i nvr thought i knew or had. Yeah, ur like a brother i nvr had man. Though i must also say u helped to influence my liver to become stronger haha, well i ll take that as a skill gained hahah.
Like u said all that has happened in the past months has really been nuthin more than a blessing in disguise. Oh yeah thanks for introducing me to Paramore too man, ownage!!!!! Oh plus all my girl* problems too, yeah though ur advice gave me really really powerful dreams, i must say they were interesting lar hahaha.
Anyway, i look forward to CNY parties!!! Which i know u ll organise and etc cause U ARE OUR DJ!!!! LOL..
Somehow u have the same effect as Ian in a way..
Everytime i think abt our friendship and the bright future with flashign lights and loud music, i always think of this phrase.
Bad boys bad boy whatchoo gonna do whatchoo gonna do when we come for U
LoL armed with ur cigar at the side of ur mouth, wearing ur intern clothes, waxed up hair and welding a carbine in ur hands.
Then U say before shooting people'e brains out
HAELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Swee =)
Monday, January 21, 2008
Pre army adventures*
Garghhh, Han u fucker.......
Ok its currently 11.20
Im gonna gym swim do loads of cardo so i wont look so sloppy later. Hope the sun would be up later as well.
Then maybe enjoy a nice pool match with my prozz friend, hopefully i ll beat him. Seriously he so pro he makes me nervous.
Then stay at home and mentally prep myself for the upcoming dance class.
GARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I mean like 80% of me is saying, can lar dont worry it ll be like mass dance, and hey ur going army this fri!! So yeah this new experience would be fun and interesting.
the other 20% though............not that Han that mofo made it any better for me. Prancing elephant.....wtffff stockingss.....i ll so look like a turd lar.
I can do this, COME ON!! My gawd, im feeling the same way the way i felt in my converse 3 on 3 basketball competition.
LETS DO THIS.
Friends pls download this song its damn nice. I found it on youtube. =)
Check it out its nice.
You up for a dance?
Ok its currently 11.20
Im gonna gym swim do loads of cardo so i wont look so sloppy later. Hope the sun would be up later as well.
Then maybe enjoy a nice pool match with my prozz friend, hopefully i ll beat him. Seriously he so pro he makes me nervous.
Then stay at home and mentally prep myself for the upcoming dance class.
GARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I mean like 80% of me is saying, can lar dont worry it ll be like mass dance, and hey ur going army this fri!! So yeah this new experience would be fun and interesting.
the other 20% though............not that Han that mofo made it any better for me. Prancing elephant.....wtffff stockingss.....i ll so look like a turd lar.
I can do this, COME ON!! My gawd, im feeling the same way the way i felt in my converse 3 on 3 basketball competition.
LETS DO THIS.
Friends pls download this song its damn nice. I found it on youtube. =)
Check it out its nice.
You up for a dance?
Friday, January 18, 2008
Im all heart* This ones for u Ian (my bitch)
HELLLOO EVERYBODYYY, its been quite a while since i blogged, well at least im blogging now aren't I?
Army is like in 7 days!!! Garghhhh, i pretty much bet i ll become some animal when i get there haha. Of course i ll kope food and etc, lol but not form my commanding officer lar.
Jerome: Is that nice, Sir? Can i take some?
Reaches over to kope C.O's chicken..
C.O:......
Jerome: HMMMMM tastesss gddddd =)
C.O: CBBB KNNNN CONFINEMENT FOR 2 MONTHS!!! SEND U TO DENTENTION BARRACKS AHH!!
LoL cfm die.
I guess after the night before last night, mambo night, i was thinking about a whole lot of stuff.
It was meant to be fun and all that, yeah i was kinda gone even before i reached there. Left a pretty bad impression on Ian's friends, two were MODELSS!!! Garghhhh!! Cause like eh i accidentally broke a glass when i reached there, shit. Hahaha, the hilarious fact was that i still had my dog instincts with me, ''IAN U BROKE THE GLASS NOT ME!!!'' Then like everyone was, ''wah lao Iannnnnnnn...'' Hmmm seems i am a true dog* after all haha.
Well eveything was going fine, till some fucked up shit happened and everything nearly went down hill from there. Thanks Chris Kwok Ming and Ian for saving my ass, seriously, i think without u guys i would have done some really really stupid shit. Though in the process u guys busted my thumb, morons. Nah jk thanks guys.
I guess when these sort of things happen somehow or another, pretty messed up, i blame it on myself, i really dont know why. I just cant stand seeing my friends gettin shit they dont deserve. Dunno, guess back in Jc, whenever there was a bad choir performance, i really really felt it was my fault, i would seriously feel like commiting suicide after that. Its not like im trying to be the hero* or some shit, its just the way i feel/felt. Same thing last last night.
One thing is for sure, which i believe lar. Even though shit may happened what so ever, u will always have a place in ur heart somewhere for that person. And the truth yeah i may not have strong feelings for u as before, but yeah i still do care. Honestly, how can i forget all the times i tried to impress u, make u happy etc etc. So yeah dont u ever say i dont care, cause if i didnt, i wouldnt have wanted to fight for ur behalf. Yeah, i ve moved on, but it doesnt mean i dont give a damn about u anymore. Peharps its my fault for the awkardness and the lack of initiative for conversations but yeah i still care, and i will forever will care.
On another note, if i ever find out who the mf was , ur so f-ing dead. U can run but u cant hide i promise u that.
I guess after all that has happened, people may be shocked at how much i have changed as compared to before. But yeah people will always change, i cant say no to the fact that army would influence me in anyways, be it gd or bad. I will change, but either way i ve change, i really believed that i ve learned so many lessons, even from my clubbing nights. You can really can see who are your true friends, and who are the ones who would stay with u and really take care for you, while burning up valuable dance time. Yeah i ve grown up definetly, i ve accepted the fact that this is a phase in life, hell i mean im not gonna be dancing when im 60 years old, or will I? Freaking get bounced first lar. But u learn lar u really really do. Even as i type this i just feel so much more enlightened about all that has happened in the past month or so. Still feeling rather heart wrenched from wed though. I ve changedok i admit that, but i believe what i know what im doing, like Joel said, its whether u learn it the hard way or the easy way. Dont be naive, dont be innocent, just be strong and if u have screwed up, pick urself up and move on, still holding onto whatever u believe, be it love lar or loyalty, or in my case brotherhood.
I guess no matter how much people would talk to you, be it teachers, parents, friends, etc, the decison to change is really really individual. So yeah.....ahhh great im like freaking preaching again......................................................as usual. But really guys this ones from my heart.
Sometimes i really wonder why i care so much for people, really i dont understand, but u guys are my friends and i ll do all thats neccesary to help. Even if it that includes justice. Maybe Huixian was right, about me having some gift of hospitality. Maybe i dunno, i was nvr much of a person to think so deep. But yeah, my friends are important to me lar, honestly. Oh and pls, if u weren't there on wed, don't ask.
Leadership service loyalty sacrifice love integrity and courage. Im still so young in these catergories, so damn young. Hey at least im willing to learn, i know life will teach me more, and God's plan for me too. Just dont freaking hurt my friends in the process please to teach me such lessons.
Feelinga wee bit emo now....nvm.
ANYWAY, THIS ONES FOR IAN ONG, A.K.A, my bitch.
LoL first time i met him, it was soo soo soo soo, aiya cant remember lar lol.
I bet hes saying ''DOG DOG DOG'' at this very moment in front of his com.
Well thanks bro, for always looking out for me in the fun times we ve had in Jc and outside school too. Wah dog u really touched me today lar, like when he and kwok Ming were talking abt all their clubbing adventures at underage parties, i asked lar, how come nvr invite me. Then he said, ohh cause u last time choir president mah.
Woah.
Yeah, thanks for always watching my back even in school, in small things from academics, han lah, ur econs how zaiiii, to reminding me to not bring food out of the canteen. For all the clubbing fun we had together, yes sir u how prozz always can get girls unlike me i how shy???. Also to rapping in class hahahah freaking funny. Ahhhh, we how tight. Oh also to sharing ur food with me though u were nvr really happy about it hahaha. Oh oh drinks too haha. For giving me feedback on morning ensemble singing.
You've really been a true friend to me lar, i mean i really really wished i had known u for longer than two years, but then again friendship ain't like wine isn't it? Oh yeah and the billions of hours we spent gymming together till Mr David loh thought we were gay, thats some funny shit man. I guess words cant really express how i feel, just so damn thankful for all u ve done for me. Though that doesnt mean i ll stop stealing ur food hahaha. Oh btw, cook more of ur beer sausages for me leh, damn tasty hahaha.
We how tight!!
Anyway God bless u =), and if u feel touched by this post, please dont forget to treat me to something nice and tasty and filling =)
Like i said lar......WE HOW TIGHT???
We ll be dancing to AYO TECHNOLOGY IN ARMYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
Army is like in 7 days!!! Garghhhh, i pretty much bet i ll become some animal when i get there haha. Of course i ll kope food and etc, lol but not form my commanding officer lar.
Jerome: Is that nice, Sir? Can i take some?
Reaches over to kope C.O's chicken..
C.O:......
Jerome: HMMMMM tastesss gddddd =)
C.O: CBBB KNNNN CONFINEMENT FOR 2 MONTHS!!! SEND U TO DENTENTION BARRACKS AHH!!
LoL cfm die.
I guess after the night before last night, mambo night, i was thinking about a whole lot of stuff.
It was meant to be fun and all that, yeah i was kinda gone even before i reached there. Left a pretty bad impression on Ian's friends, two were MODELSS!!! Garghhhh!! Cause like eh i accidentally broke a glass when i reached there, shit. Hahaha, the hilarious fact was that i still had my dog instincts with me, ''IAN U BROKE THE GLASS NOT ME!!!'' Then like everyone was, ''wah lao Iannnnnnnn...'' Hmmm seems i am a true dog* after all haha.
Well eveything was going fine, till some fucked up shit happened and everything nearly went down hill from there. Thanks Chris Kwok Ming and Ian for saving my ass, seriously, i think without u guys i would have done some really really stupid shit. Though in the process u guys busted my thumb, morons. Nah jk thanks guys.
I guess when these sort of things happen somehow or another, pretty messed up, i blame it on myself, i really dont know why. I just cant stand seeing my friends gettin shit they dont deserve. Dunno, guess back in Jc, whenever there was a bad choir performance, i really really felt it was my fault, i would seriously feel like commiting suicide after that. Its not like im trying to be the hero* or some shit, its just the way i feel/felt. Same thing last last night.
One thing is for sure, which i believe lar. Even though shit may happened what so ever, u will always have a place in ur heart somewhere for that person. And the truth yeah i may not have strong feelings for u as before, but yeah i still do care. Honestly, how can i forget all the times i tried to impress u, make u happy etc etc. So yeah dont u ever say i dont care, cause if i didnt, i wouldnt have wanted to fight for ur behalf. Yeah, i ve moved on, but it doesnt mean i dont give a damn about u anymore. Peharps its my fault for the awkardness and the lack of initiative for conversations but yeah i still care, and i will forever will care.
On another note, if i ever find out who the mf was , ur so f-ing dead. U can run but u cant hide i promise u that.
I guess after all that has happened, people may be shocked at how much i have changed as compared to before. But yeah people will always change, i cant say no to the fact that army would influence me in anyways, be it gd or bad. I will change, but either way i ve change, i really believed that i ve learned so many lessons, even from my clubbing nights. You can really can see who are your true friends, and who are the ones who would stay with u and really take care for you, while burning up valuable dance time. Yeah i ve grown up definetly, i ve accepted the fact that this is a phase in life, hell i mean im not gonna be dancing when im 60 years old, or will I? Freaking get bounced first lar. But u learn lar u really really do. Even as i type this i just feel so much more enlightened about all that has happened in the past month or so. Still feeling rather heart wrenched from wed though. I ve changedok i admit that, but i believe what i know what im doing, like Joel said, its whether u learn it the hard way or the easy way. Dont be naive, dont be innocent, just be strong and if u have screwed up, pick urself up and move on, still holding onto whatever u believe, be it love lar or loyalty, or in my case brotherhood.
I guess no matter how much people would talk to you, be it teachers, parents, friends, etc, the decison to change is really really individual. So yeah.....ahhh great im like freaking preaching again......................................................as usual. But really guys this ones from my heart.
Sometimes i really wonder why i care so much for people, really i dont understand, but u guys are my friends and i ll do all thats neccesary to help. Even if it that includes justice. Maybe Huixian was right, about me having some gift of hospitality. Maybe i dunno, i was nvr much of a person to think so deep. But yeah, my friends are important to me lar, honestly. Oh and pls, if u weren't there on wed, don't ask.
Leadership service loyalty sacrifice love integrity and courage. Im still so young in these catergories, so damn young. Hey at least im willing to learn, i know life will teach me more, and God's plan for me too. Just dont freaking hurt my friends in the process please to teach me such lessons.
Feelinga wee bit emo now....nvm.
ANYWAY, THIS ONES FOR IAN ONG, A.K.A, my bitch.
LoL first time i met him, it was soo soo soo soo, aiya cant remember lar lol.
I bet hes saying ''DOG DOG DOG'' at this very moment in front of his com.
Well thanks bro, for always looking out for me in the fun times we ve had in Jc and outside school too. Wah dog u really touched me today lar, like when he and kwok Ming were talking abt all their clubbing adventures at underage parties, i asked lar, how come nvr invite me. Then he said, ohh cause u last time choir president mah.
Woah.
Yeah, thanks for always watching my back even in school, in small things from academics, han lah, ur econs how zaiiii, to reminding me to not bring food out of the canteen. For all the clubbing fun we had together, yes sir u how prozz always can get girls unlike me i how shy???. Also to rapping in class hahahah freaking funny. Ahhhh, we how tight. Oh also to sharing ur food with me though u were nvr really happy about it hahaha. Oh oh drinks too haha. For giving me feedback on morning ensemble singing.
You've really been a true friend to me lar, i mean i really really wished i had known u for longer than two years, but then again friendship ain't like wine isn't it? Oh yeah and the billions of hours we spent gymming together till Mr David loh thought we were gay, thats some funny shit man. I guess words cant really express how i feel, just so damn thankful for all u ve done for me. Though that doesnt mean i ll stop stealing ur food hahaha. Oh btw, cook more of ur beer sausages for me leh, damn tasty hahaha.
We how tight!!
Anyway God bless u =), and if u feel touched by this post, please dont forget to treat me to something nice and tasty and filling =)
Like i said lar......WE HOW TIGHT???
We ll be dancing to AYO TECHNOLOGY IN ARMYYYYY!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Humour me*
Abdominal muscles
Bench press
Curls
Deltoids
Extentions
Flexing
Grunts
Half squats
Inclined bench press
Jumps
Knee extentions
Leg raises
Muscle aches
Neck raises
One for one
Pectorals
Q....
Resting time
S.....
T.....
U......
Vertical curls
Weak
X......
Y.......
Zouk
Bench press
Curls
Deltoids
Extentions
Flexing
Grunts
Half squats
Inclined bench press
Jumps
Knee extentions
Leg raises
Muscle aches
Neck raises
One for one
Pectorals
Q....
Resting time
S.....
T.....
U......
Vertical curls
Weak
X......
Y.......
Zouk
Saturday, January 12, 2008
XinGay (Wei) 's night*
Aite aite. One long day.
It started off pretty well with me, Ian, Tze Shun, Wei Ting and Han Loong going to Bukit Timah Nature reserve to climb. Not bad haha it was pretty fun, but too bad we didnt really to appreciate mother nature cause they were freaking making so much noise. Animals leh i tell u. Not to mention Wei A.K.A the chest hair girl was blatantly Flirting!!! With all the half naked old uncles doing the same path as us. LOL LOL. Like Han would say. diiiiisssssgussstttingggg!!!!
Touche man touche =)
After 2 hrs plus of hiking i tell u it was freaking freaking tiring lar, but gd exercise plus we got to appreaciate a bit o mother nature lol. Haha think i ll go again monday morning of something lol. Oh and we saw two monkeys like mating too on the way out, lol pretty cool i guess........OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK MOVING ON...
Slacked at home, joined Han to get his new glasses, hey man, looking gddddd lol.
Then came the night.
Celebrated Xingay's bd at Han's place...and ironically enough......it was freaking Kiattttt who got knocked out. Ok he was still alive and kicking BUT HE WAS FREAKING GONE....ANIMAL!!
1) He bitched slapped me when i rated him jokingly 5 upon ten
2) He mistook water for beer
3) He kept saying he had high tolerance when he was puking
4) He tried to kiss the Bd boy LoL
5) He tried to climb a tree and when he failed he kicked it
6) He thought a tree was pissing on him when it was just water droplets, and he scolded it and kicked it
etc etc etc.........
Sighhh.............Very this ur first time ah. All drinkers out there, please know ur limit and everything in moderation. If ur spinning already, it means ok man enough.
What a day man what a day.
For Xingay. This ones for you.
Hmmmm, guess i ve known u for sec3 sec4 j one j two, one two three four. Yeah 4 years already. Never would i forget the times we played bball together, trash talking the ankle breakers and the wicked games together. LoL strange how things are in Jc isnt it? We started pooling and gymming (YEAH) and swimming like damn damn frequently lol. Thanks for being there man whnever i was emo and what other nonsense. The fun times we had laughing at sick jokes and suaning other people, lol though thats really not nice. We how tight? Once again, i know u ll definetly be one of those who would aid me in some gang fight or etc. I guess u ll always brought a certain sense of jockness* in my life lol, aiya ur such a noob lar u ll cfm know what im trying to say when u read this post.
Knowing how much of a dog i am, dont mind if i say im damn tired and too lazy to blog anymore hahaha.
Bros for life man, sorry man, cant quite agree over the bros over hoes thing. LoL u understand. Well, sorry i wasnt able to let you experience clubbing, im sure with ur sexy bod u ll be able to score though lol lol.
Shaq dunks* OHHHHHH SAVE THE WOOOMEEEN AND CHILDDDREEENNNN!!!!
Dont forget to keep treating me to more food in the future!!! =)
Oh and ur a proz* Hahahaha, puker lol lol.
God bless*
It started off pretty well with me, Ian, Tze Shun, Wei Ting and Han Loong going to Bukit Timah Nature reserve to climb. Not bad haha it was pretty fun, but too bad we didnt really to appreciate mother nature cause they were freaking making so much noise. Animals leh i tell u. Not to mention Wei A.K.A the chest hair girl was blatantly Flirting!!! With all the half naked old uncles doing the same path as us. LOL LOL. Like Han would say. diiiiisssssgussstttingggg!!!!
Touche man touche =)
After 2 hrs plus of hiking i tell u it was freaking freaking tiring lar, but gd exercise plus we got to appreaciate a bit o mother nature lol. Haha think i ll go again monday morning of something lol. Oh and we saw two monkeys like mating too on the way out, lol pretty cool i guess........OKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK MOVING ON...
Slacked at home, joined Han to get his new glasses, hey man, looking gddddd lol.
Then came the night.
Celebrated Xingay's bd at Han's place...and ironically enough......it was freaking Kiattttt who got knocked out. Ok he was still alive and kicking BUT HE WAS FREAKING GONE....ANIMAL!!
1) He bitched slapped me when i rated him jokingly 5 upon ten
2) He mistook water for beer
3) He kept saying he had high tolerance when he was puking
4) He tried to kiss the Bd boy LoL
5) He tried to climb a tree and when he failed he kicked it
6) He thought a tree was pissing on him when it was just water droplets, and he scolded it and kicked it
etc etc etc.........
Sighhh.............Very this ur first time ah. All drinkers out there, please know ur limit and everything in moderation. If ur spinning already, it means ok man enough.
What a day man what a day.
For Xingay. This ones for you.
Hmmmm, guess i ve known u for sec3 sec4 j one j two, one two three four. Yeah 4 years already. Never would i forget the times we played bball together, trash talking the ankle breakers and the wicked games together. LoL strange how things are in Jc isnt it? We started pooling and gymming (YEAH) and swimming like damn damn frequently lol. Thanks for being there man whnever i was emo and what other nonsense. The fun times we had laughing at sick jokes and suaning other people, lol though thats really not nice. We how tight? Once again, i know u ll definetly be one of those who would aid me in some gang fight or etc. I guess u ll always brought a certain sense of jockness* in my life lol, aiya ur such a noob lar u ll cfm know what im trying to say when u read this post.
Knowing how much of a dog i am, dont mind if i say im damn tired and too lazy to blog anymore hahaha.
Bros for life man, sorry man, cant quite agree over the bros over hoes thing. LoL u understand. Well, sorry i wasnt able to let you experience clubbing, im sure with ur sexy bod u ll be able to score though lol lol.
Shaq dunks* OHHHHHH SAVE THE WOOOMEEEN AND CHILDDDREEENNNN!!!!
Dont forget to keep treating me to more food in the future!!! =)
Oh and ur a proz* Hahahaha, puker lol lol.
God bless*
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Bong's night*
So it was off to Bong's place for one crazy night and preparing him for pre army.
I think i got high on the fun.
Come to think of it, yeah, a bit lar just a bit.
Along with Sidney, Marcus, Bobby a.k.a bobo, Jinghan, Brenden, Reuben, Ivan, hmmmmm missing out someone....chicken..whose the fella ah......Jerrold!! And of course urs truely the one and only Ham-some Me.
We have delicious food, thanks to his maid uber cooking, and once again, Manhunt winner me got first blood, meaning first taste of the food. Ohhhhhh crapppp, i totally forgot to say Grace, shit damn sorry..
We had like eh chicken wings eh, chicken curry, fried rice, egg salad with corn, Ca-shew i think and some uber tasting spring rolls, which were home made. How sweet is that??? lol
After watching some DUMB serial which ZIHAN MAN O CHEST H*IR totally insisted in watching, seriously it was some chinese serial at like 7 to 8, even WWE IS better than that lar. I mean like u totally get to see more action and stuff, basically more entertaining. Strangely enough when we wanted to off the TV, Ivan protested as well, along with Zihan. Seriously we were so shocked that we all just looked at Ivan and dropped our jaws b4 laughing at his foolish taste in Tv shows.
So then we played some INDIAN POKER which was the climax of the night LOL LOL.
Lets see, Ivan tried catching an egg with his shirt, as in only using the openings of his collar as it broke against his naked body, lol i tell u we all burst into laughing it was just so so so so so so so funny haha. I give that a 9 upon ten lol.
One round bong had to out an egg into his mouth and we all tried making him laugh, not bad lar i give that forfeit a 7 upon ten LOL. That was pretty funny lol.
Then we taupoked brenden slowly and purposefully, lol i was the first guy on him lar and i pounced on him like WWE style from the ring post. Ok that was damn funny lol so i give that a 8 upon ten lol lol.
We put cubes of ice into Zihan's underwear from his behind, and we held him there too hahahahahahah it was so so funny hahahahhah, he hit like two octaves higher than his highest T2 note with his yelps/screams/shrieks. LOL then later we wanted to do the coup de grace by taupoking him to a pulp with ice in his underwear hahaha. That was so funny lar, haha i give it a nine upon ten.
Another round i arm locked Jinghan and forced him to smell the air from Bong's old smelly and DISGUSTING LOOKING BASKETBALL. Basically he put the pin inside and drained the air out in front of Jinghan's face. Ok for all u out there who dont know how bad it is, ROTTEN EGGS FREAKING SMELL BETTER UNDERSTAND!!!!! Ok now u know. LOL Jinghan, paybacks a bitch =) I GIVE THAT A TEN UPON TEN =)
Alright for the best one of the night....
ahem...
Jerrold lost, so his forfeit was to let people smack his ass, prison style. Although we agreed to pull down our pants, so only underwear as protection, he had the nerve to retain his jeans. Bugger. So anyway we all lined up to smack his butt one by one with different objects.
Zihan went first, POOF* A lousy pillow. Yawn*
Next up was Jinghan and brenden same objects boring, POOF POOF* YAWN*
Next was ivan, forgot what he used but it was kinda gd cause i remembered hearing like SMACK* Yeah!!!!
Oh and all this time bong was filming i think.
Then of course lastly me, the rest of the gang left already cause it was kinda late. I took Bong's freaking guitar and smacked it against Jerrold's butt. CRACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK* WAS THE SOUND. Following which, according to Reuben he lost his voice laughing so hard when he collasped against the couch. Everyone was damn shocked me too, but Bong let loose a barrage of F words, i quote Reuben, *He said more F words in ten seconds then he ever said in his whole life lar* I personally dunno whether it was true but, it was bad lar, plus it was his dad's guitar lol. Apparently, there were four huge cracks on it.........shit man it was damn bad, freaking hell. Jerome u are one Crazyy son of a human....But u gotta give it to me, Thats was Hilarious.
I GIVE IT A HUNDRED UPON TEN =)
AND NOW DRUMROLLSSSSSSSSSSSSS
BONG THIS ONES FOR YOU LOL.
Never really though how i would blog about this but eh, yeah, i ve known him for like 6 years plus, since primary school. I think friendship is a bit like wine, as it goes longer it just gets better and better, not that short friendships are worse lar of course. So yeah man thanks for being like a brother from another mother to me, for always being there to give me advice during our years of service in the choir com. For cracking ur jokes about sensitive stuff u bastard*, and still having an extremely fun time from it. For being ur intellectual G.E.P self and helping me out in times when i felt emo and shit, or was pissed off for the wrong reasons. For always showing me that there was another side to how things worked, and alternative to problems and more I.Q stuff. I guess in a certain sort of way u did help me grow up too.
Shit man i ve really known u for freaking freaking long, just kinda hit me.
Yeah i really dont know what else to say, but all the best in army, i know ur gonna enjoy it somehow lol. Sorry about ur guitar lol. And yeah thanks man simply thanks. Ur really one of the guys i know if i ever get into a fight or trouble, u ll show up just to add members to my imaginary gang or save me from other kinds of stuff. Sorry for not being able to Mambo with u tonight, i hope u dont get wasted like b4 and have a wicked time tonight, who knows? U might just meet ur girl LOL. Drink up bong drink up =)
God really bless u though ur not Christian, and i look forward to having more fun times with u in 2008 and beyond!! =)
I think i got high on the fun.
Come to think of it, yeah, a bit lar just a bit.
Along with Sidney, Marcus, Bobby a.k.a bobo, Jinghan, Brenden, Reuben, Ivan, hmmmmm missing out someone....chicken..whose the fella ah......Jerrold!! And of course urs truely the one and only Ham-some Me.
We have delicious food, thanks to his maid uber cooking, and once again, Manhunt winner me got first blood, meaning first taste of the food. Ohhhhhh crapppp, i totally forgot to say Grace, shit damn sorry..
We had like eh chicken wings eh, chicken curry, fried rice, egg salad with corn, Ca-shew i think and some uber tasting spring rolls, which were home made. How sweet is that??? lol
After watching some DUMB serial which ZIHAN MAN O CHEST H*IR totally insisted in watching, seriously it was some chinese serial at like 7 to 8, even WWE IS better than that lar. I mean like u totally get to see more action and stuff, basically more entertaining. Strangely enough when we wanted to off the TV, Ivan protested as well, along with Zihan. Seriously we were so shocked that we all just looked at Ivan and dropped our jaws b4 laughing at his foolish taste in Tv shows.
So then we played some INDIAN POKER which was the climax of the night LOL LOL.
Lets see, Ivan tried catching an egg with his shirt, as in only using the openings of his collar as it broke against his naked body, lol i tell u we all burst into laughing it was just so so so so so so so funny haha. I give that a 9 upon ten lol.
One round bong had to out an egg into his mouth and we all tried making him laugh, not bad lar i give that forfeit a 7 upon ten LOL. That was pretty funny lol.
Then we taupoked brenden slowly and purposefully, lol i was the first guy on him lar and i pounced on him like WWE style from the ring post. Ok that was damn funny lol so i give that a 8 upon ten lol lol.
We put cubes of ice into Zihan's underwear from his behind, and we held him there too hahahahahahah it was so so funny hahahahhah, he hit like two octaves higher than his highest T2 note with his yelps/screams/shrieks. LOL then later we wanted to do the coup de grace by taupoking him to a pulp with ice in his underwear hahaha. That was so funny lar, haha i give it a nine upon ten.
Another round i arm locked Jinghan and forced him to smell the air from Bong's old smelly and DISGUSTING LOOKING BASKETBALL. Basically he put the pin inside and drained the air out in front of Jinghan's face. Ok for all u out there who dont know how bad it is, ROTTEN EGGS FREAKING SMELL BETTER UNDERSTAND!!!!! Ok now u know. LOL Jinghan, paybacks a bitch =) I GIVE THAT A TEN UPON TEN =)
Alright for the best one of the night....
ahem...
Jerrold lost, so his forfeit was to let people smack his ass, prison style. Although we agreed to pull down our pants, so only underwear as protection, he had the nerve to retain his jeans. Bugger. So anyway we all lined up to smack his butt one by one with different objects.
Zihan went first, POOF* A lousy pillow. Yawn*
Next up was Jinghan and brenden same objects boring, POOF POOF* YAWN*
Next was ivan, forgot what he used but it was kinda gd cause i remembered hearing like SMACK* Yeah!!!!
Oh and all this time bong was filming i think.
Then of course lastly me, the rest of the gang left already cause it was kinda late. I took Bong's freaking guitar and smacked it against Jerrold's butt. CRACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK* WAS THE SOUND. Following which, according to Reuben he lost his voice laughing so hard when he collasped against the couch. Everyone was damn shocked me too, but Bong let loose a barrage of F words, i quote Reuben, *He said more F words in ten seconds then he ever said in his whole life lar* I personally dunno whether it was true but, it was bad lar, plus it was his dad's guitar lol. Apparently, there were four huge cracks on it.........shit man it was damn bad, freaking hell. Jerome u are one Crazyy son of a human....But u gotta give it to me, Thats was Hilarious.
I GIVE IT A HUNDRED UPON TEN =)
AND NOW DRUMROLLSSSSSSSSSSSSS
BONG THIS ONES FOR YOU LOL.
Never really though how i would blog about this but eh, yeah, i ve known him for like 6 years plus, since primary school. I think friendship is a bit like wine, as it goes longer it just gets better and better, not that short friendships are worse lar of course. So yeah man thanks for being like a brother from another mother to me, for always being there to give me advice during our years of service in the choir com. For cracking ur jokes about sensitive stuff u bastard*, and still having an extremely fun time from it. For being ur intellectual G.E.P self and helping me out in times when i felt emo and shit, or was pissed off for the wrong reasons. For always showing me that there was another side to how things worked, and alternative to problems and more I.Q stuff. I guess in a certain sort of way u did help me grow up too.
Shit man i ve really known u for freaking freaking long, just kinda hit me.
Yeah i really dont know what else to say, but all the best in army, i know ur gonna enjoy it somehow lol. Sorry about ur guitar lol. And yeah thanks man simply thanks. Ur really one of the guys i know if i ever get into a fight or trouble, u ll show up just to add members to my imaginary gang or save me from other kinds of stuff. Sorry for not being able to Mambo with u tonight, i hope u dont get wasted like b4 and have a wicked time tonight, who knows? U might just meet ur girl LOL. Drink up bong drink up =)
God really bless u though ur not Christian, and i look forward to having more fun times with u in 2008 and beyond!! =)
Monday, January 07, 2008
Aite Mdc*
So today i woke up at friggiin 7 in the morning just to travel 3 hrs worth to go for my MDC auditions with Brenden and Jerrold.
Well overall it was kinda gd i felt. Though my lyrics were all jumbled up and i started have yourself a merry little Xmas too high, it was overall pretty ok.
Fun fact of the day though, some gay guy rated me like 7/10, on what category i do not know, i dont wanna know. LOL. When i told them i was Pes C one guy was like, why? whats wrroong with ur Fine* Body?? Damn, i was kinda freaked out, lucky one o my seniors were there haha. So it didnt feel so awkard.
Yeah they sang along with my uptown girls, and have yourself was pretty ok i felt. Problem is they only can accept one member when the previous guy singing it quits. So like i might have to go for auditions again. Ahhhh feels so choir-ish, hey im here for the auditions. But thankfully i wont have to sing ACS anthem or National anthem LOL.
I guess im pretty intimidated by the fact that army is coming so soon. Like most of my friends are all going in sooner or later.
So i ve decided to blog, from now on, dedication posts, not that i need to prove anything, but just cause im grateful for the impact that these people/Cocksters/morons had on my life.
Oh and strangely enough, i ve realises that in these past fews days, whenever im damn tired, i feel kinda high. Damn weird.
Sighh, kinda getting bored of bumming around everyday, its always the same, gymming swimming pooling. What happened to the gd old days of school? LoL, time passes too fast indeed, when we were younggg. Its seems even the simplest stuff can be so so heartwarming and satisfying. U kinda know what i mean, like they say it aint the place or the activity but the company.
Its getting late and im seriously feeling high.
Most of alllll, its built to lastttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt......
How much more can i give, i really dont know..
Well overall it was kinda gd i felt. Though my lyrics were all jumbled up and i started have yourself a merry little Xmas too high, it was overall pretty ok.
Fun fact of the day though, some gay guy rated me like 7/10, on what category i do not know, i dont wanna know. LOL. When i told them i was Pes C one guy was like, why? whats wrroong with ur Fine* Body?? Damn, i was kinda freaked out, lucky one o my seniors were there haha. So it didnt feel so awkard.
Yeah they sang along with my uptown girls, and have yourself was pretty ok i felt. Problem is they only can accept one member when the previous guy singing it quits. So like i might have to go for auditions again. Ahhhh feels so choir-ish, hey im here for the auditions. But thankfully i wont have to sing ACS anthem or National anthem LOL.
I guess im pretty intimidated by the fact that army is coming so soon. Like most of my friends are all going in sooner or later.
So i ve decided to blog, from now on, dedication posts, not that i need to prove anything, but just cause im grateful for the impact that these people/Cocksters/morons had on my life.
Oh and strangely enough, i ve realises that in these past fews days, whenever im damn tired, i feel kinda high. Damn weird.
Sighh, kinda getting bored of bumming around everyday, its always the same, gymming swimming pooling. What happened to the gd old days of school? LoL, time passes too fast indeed, when we were younggg. Its seems even the simplest stuff can be so so heartwarming and satisfying. U kinda know what i mean, like they say it aint the place or the activity but the company.
Its getting late and im seriously feeling high.
Most of alllll, its built to lastttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt......
How much more can i give, i really dont know..
Sunday, January 06, 2008
sigh*
Ok Mass dance was kinda fun, the freestyling especially haha. Nice one my Og Kids who are J three hhaa. Anyway, been talking with people about stuff like life and all that. Ok ok sounds rather boring but alright honestly, i think i ve been falling a bit short of what i am, what i stand for, what i am suppose to improve further.
Watching people around me change for the better, yes u Sa Paodo me (dont worry i appreciate that OK!!!), and Miss Leheng, finding her faith in God. Really makes me feel kinda like shit. How i feel now is really like eminem's song, Toy soldiers* Shit man, i know i know i ll change, i promise.
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I'm supposed to set an example
We all fall down indeed.
But in this world of mine, u jolly well pick yourself up and move on.
I will be responsible for myself.
Watching people around me change for the better, yes u Sa Paodo me (dont worry i appreciate that OK!!!), and Miss Leheng, finding her faith in God. Really makes me feel kinda like shit. How i feel now is really like eminem's song, Toy soldiers* Shit man, i know i know i ll change, i promise.
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I'm supposed to set an example
We all fall down indeed.
But in this world of mine, u jolly well pick yourself up and move on.
I will be responsible for myself.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
She*
U were right Yanni, I did go and meet the most beautiful girl in the world today. =)
She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
I'm not done
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
Man I swear
She's got porcelin skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
But movin' on
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future
she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love
or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture
in my wallet like here
This one's for you
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS =)
My new year resolutions
1) Stop cursing
2) Cut down drinking
3) Have a more serious perspective to life
4) Invest in more friendships =)
5) Be a better role model
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE =) Know that u are loved by someone in the world =)
1) Stop cursing
2) Cut down drinking
3) Have a more serious perspective to life
4) Invest in more friendships =)
5) Be a better role model
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE =) Know that u are loved by someone in the world =)
Monday, December 31, 2007
Han spammed me*
Well i thought it was kinda funny lar. Anyway just read for yourselves.
ive never met someone who could leave me speechless so often. another person who can do this is jerome. take, for example, the conversation i had with him and xing wei after lunch but an hour ago...
han: hey you guys heard bhutto died?
xing wei: yeah man...
jerome: whos that?
han: ...
xing wei: ...
han: wait, you dont know who bhutto is?
jerome: yeah who is that?
xing wei: jerome you only know your wrestlers lah. you know great khali you dunno whos bhutto
jerome: i know great khali but i really dont know who is bhuttohan
(it was about this time that i decided to mock jerome a bit...): bhutto was the great khali's manager man.
xing wei: yeah...
jerome: wha serious ah...
han: yeah man. died yesterday
jerome: wha cheeecken i didnt know...*pause while jerome checks his hair in his reflection, me and xing wei sniggering already*
jerome: ay why you two smiling
xing wei: oh its the sun...
han: yeah the sun...
jerome: wait, ok, bhutto isnt the great khali's manager. thats bullshit.
han: hahaha
xing wei: hahahahan: okok hes not lah. you mean you really dont know who bhutto is???
jerome: yeah, just tell me lah.
han: bhutto was the ex PM of pakistan man
jerome: ohhh was he important?
han: ...
xing wei: ...
han: bhuttos a she...
jerome: oh...
xing wei: how can you not know, its all over the papers and news
jerome: aiyah dunno lah
han: look, its right here*shows jerome copy of newpaper*
jerome: whoa...*pause while jerome reads the cover of the paper*
jerome: singapore havoc teen starts drinking at 11...
han: ...
xing wei: ...wtf.
hahahaha you two ah, are a constant friggin strain on my sanity. if its not having to keep quiet while kiat admires himself, its trying not to be TOO mean while making fun of jerome. but i love you both, no question about it. : )
I was just messing with the both of your lar, frankly speaking i was damn shagged so yeah. I cant think straight when im damn tired. AH HA, valid excuse ok =)
ive never met someone who could leave me speechless so often. another person who can do this is jerome. take, for example, the conversation i had with him and xing wei after lunch but an hour ago...
han: hey you guys heard bhutto died?
xing wei: yeah man...
jerome: whos that?
han: ...
xing wei: ...
han: wait, you dont know who bhutto is?
jerome: yeah who is that?
xing wei: jerome you only know your wrestlers lah. you know great khali you dunno whos bhutto
jerome: i know great khali but i really dont know who is bhuttohan
(it was about this time that i decided to mock jerome a bit...): bhutto was the great khali's manager man.
xing wei: yeah...
jerome: wha serious ah...
han: yeah man. died yesterday
jerome: wha cheeecken i didnt know...*pause while jerome checks his hair in his reflection, me and xing wei sniggering already*
jerome: ay why you two smiling
xing wei: oh its the sun...
han: yeah the sun...
jerome: wait, ok, bhutto isnt the great khali's manager. thats bullshit.
han: hahaha
xing wei: hahahahan: okok hes not lah. you mean you really dont know who bhutto is???
jerome: yeah, just tell me lah.
han: bhutto was the ex PM of pakistan man
jerome: ohhh was he important?
han: ...
xing wei: ...
han: bhuttos a she...
jerome: oh...
xing wei: how can you not know, its all over the papers and news
jerome: aiyah dunno lah
han: look, its right here*shows jerome copy of newpaper*
jerome: whoa...*pause while jerome reads the cover of the paper*
jerome: singapore havoc teen starts drinking at 11...
han: ...
xing wei: ...wtf.
hahahaha you two ah, are a constant friggin strain on my sanity. if its not having to keep quiet while kiat admires himself, its trying not to be TOO mean while making fun of jerome. but i love you both, no question about it. : )
I was just messing with the both of your lar, frankly speaking i was damn shagged so yeah. I cant think straight when im damn tired. AH HA, valid excuse ok =)
New Year*
Oh my sunnn so much has happened since i last blogged.
I guess i ve both experienced the gd and the bad. Too lazy to type guess i ll just type them out in point form, the good and the bad.
In no order of significance.
1) Gym DUHHHHH
2) Swim, u guys see my nice sexy tan? haha jk jk
3) Pool like mad, seriously played 20 bucks worth of it, damn crazy.
4) Had lousy sessions of clubbing, NO THANKS TO YOU BONG!! Its ok lar i know you would do the same for me if ever the time came.
5) Sang my heart out for carrolling =) That wassss sooooo gdddd the les a mis too.
6) Drink/drank more and more, in controlled amts of course, i guess i ll drink even more if some stuff dont work out well. But it will lar, i have confidence, both options anyway.
7) Being with my brothers, i lubvcxxxe u guys man, for sharing your food with me, for laughing and hearing my shit, for always being there, FOR MOCKING ME U BASTARDS. But yeah i know in all seriousness, i know u guys would be there for me if any shit happens. God willing it wont lar.
8) Relationship with parents dying, sigh long story and still pisses me off
9) Got backstabbed by Jinghan when he posted lousy pics of me in facebook, traitor!!
10) Got spammed really badly on alumni bbq, basket.
11) Shi shaed, quite yucky though.
12) Spend/spent/spending time with those who really matter to me.
I guess what Bong said to me in his cheap skate card rather sums it up. *Aiya words cannot express how i feel lar its just like that* Simple yet worth a thousand meanings. Nice i like that. U dog. LOL LOL.
First time i heard this song i thought the guy was singing Monsterball monsterball....lol i cant believe i sang it at orchard road lar, omg damn Genius lol. Ok ok so its most of all. Anyway this song i really damn nice. But what han said to me today was right, i dont have any rational reasons to feel this way. So just enjoy life, but i know whatever happens i ll be alright. Everything will be alright, i promise.
Enjoy this song guys......MONSTERBALL MONSTERBALL...hahaha. Pronounce ur england properly lar, chicken.
Heres a toast to 200 eh 2008 i think =)
I guess i ve both experienced the gd and the bad. Too lazy to type guess i ll just type them out in point form, the good and the bad.
In no order of significance.
1) Gym DUHHHHH
2) Swim, u guys see my nice sexy tan? haha jk jk
3) Pool like mad, seriously played 20 bucks worth of it, damn crazy.
4) Had lousy sessions of clubbing, NO THANKS TO YOU BONG!! Its ok lar i know you would do the same for me if ever the time came.
5) Sang my heart out for carrolling =) That wassss sooooo gdddd the les a mis too.
6) Drink/drank more and more, in controlled amts of course, i guess i ll drink even more if some stuff dont work out well. But it will lar, i have confidence, both options anyway.
7) Being with my brothers, i lubvcxxxe u guys man, for sharing your food with me, for laughing and hearing my shit, for always being there, FOR MOCKING ME U BASTARDS. But yeah i know in all seriousness, i know u guys would be there for me if any shit happens. God willing it wont lar.
8) Relationship with parents dying, sigh long story and still pisses me off
9) Got backstabbed by Jinghan when he posted lousy pics of me in facebook, traitor!!
10) Got spammed really badly on alumni bbq, basket.
11) Shi shaed, quite yucky though.
12) Spend/spent/spending time with those who really matter to me.
I guess what Bong said to me in his cheap skate card rather sums it up. *Aiya words cannot express how i feel lar its just like that* Simple yet worth a thousand meanings. Nice i like that. U dog. LOL LOL.
First time i heard this song i thought the guy was singing Monsterball monsterball....lol i cant believe i sang it at orchard road lar, omg damn Genius lol. Ok ok so its most of all. Anyway this song i really damn nice. But what han said to me today was right, i dont have any rational reasons to feel this way. So just enjoy life, but i know whatever happens i ll be alright. Everything will be alright, i promise.
Enjoy this song guys......MONSTERBALL MONSTERBALL...hahaha. Pronounce ur england properly lar, chicken.
Heres a toast to 200 eh 2008 i think =)
Friday, December 14, 2007
The end of a week*
Well lookie here its the end of another week....
Pretty much filled with going out and drinking and gymming nearly everyday. Gosh my liver really does need a break, actually only the day before yesterday. I dunno, guess i ve been sleeping so late and waking up so early that the i cant even remember what day it is today. Apparently, my choir schedule isnt as updated as i thought it would be....baskett..Arghhhh. Feels shitty now a days when i do what i want based on feelings and not planning.
So me Han Ian Yanni and Penguin went to Dempsey 11 for a drink which Weiting treated us =) THANKS =). Hahah i must say that, that night was so uber..We went to Borders first to look at some books, where i found my autobiography!!!! I mean Dave Batista's autobiography haha, for all em nooblets who dont know who he is, hes the current reigning WWE world heavy weight champion, every inch of this guy is sheer muscle i tell u, 290 pounds, freaking 100+ kgs. But after reading his book, yeah life is really sheer hell for some of those people living in America, having to starve like he did and crawl his way up to the top just to have a living. We, he has celebrity status now so yeah kudos to him. Anyway in Borders, i was being a total prick to Ian which was damn funny haha, oi Ian!! I got ur book right here man dont worry abt it =)!! LOL, which he would just shake his head and walk away..
Anyway i was on a lucky streak that night, some kind soul gave me his 30% discount card and i think* i found 24 dollars on he loo near the counter. Seriously, i was looking left right centre seeing if anyone was running back or missing cash....until 5 mins pass...so after much comtemplation...i took it. Shit i felt guilty as hell, but decided to use the money to treat my thirsty friends, taxi rides to Dempsey was on me =) Money well spent =). Of course they were teasing me to treat them as well lar, em Dogs!!! So we went there, and the wine was so so so so good seriously, for a 48 dollar house wine bottle it was just so good. Yeah we had a fun time there alright, where Han bought this humongous Cigar and looked every bit a manager in his intern G2000 CLOTHES!! SWEE Ahhh!! But he burnt his shirt in the end lar hahaha.
After that went to rayston's house where they were basically kinda high to say bb an GG HAVE FUN NO RE, cuz hes booking in on sat. Whatever gay shit that happened, literally, im just glad that i kept my word and showed up, if not seriously one more bottle of wine at Dempseys. Gd luck boy, hope u have a change of heart/taste there. I think 2 years of time is more than what my homophobic self would want to do, and that is to run away as though i have a fire up my ass.
Freaking hell, parents ah seriously, damn niao at me going out at night, i have no clue whatsoever as well. Ok come on, i dont smoke, dont do drugs, dont steal, murder, etc etc, and i sure as hell can take care of myself at night. Plus its not like i travel alone right, i travel with friends. So yeah, unreasonable....Ok i admit i shouldnt be bitching abt them but seriously...kns man. Sigh ok over!!
Apparently i bellowed at a woman who stole our cab that night and felt extremely satisfied when i beat some guy flat at yahoo pool. Guess no matter what, the kid in me refuses to die, genes?? Yeah yeah take for example till this day, my dad still wants to engage me in wrestling stunts, and when i fell on my butt at newton mrt, he came runinng t me saying, OH SON DID U HURT THE POOR FLOOR? Gee thanks ah in public....Oh how about the time he shot me in the ass in paintball which was a foul, blatant foul i must add. So yeah i am still a kid, and no matter what people may disapprove, or say, sry but thats the way im gonna be. I guess a year back i would say if u dont like me for the way i am then piss off!! Yeah that was in the past alright but this year, think i ll just smile and walk away....
Aite its gonna be ten soon and we ve got a performance today!! Ciao i ll be singing!!
Pretty much filled with going out and drinking and gymming nearly everyday. Gosh my liver really does need a break, actually only the day before yesterday. I dunno, guess i ve been sleeping so late and waking up so early that the i cant even remember what day it is today. Apparently, my choir schedule isnt as updated as i thought it would be....baskett..Arghhhh. Feels shitty now a days when i do what i want based on feelings and not planning.
So me Han Ian Yanni and Penguin went to Dempsey 11 for a drink which Weiting treated us =) THANKS =). Hahah i must say that, that night was so uber..We went to Borders first to look at some books, where i found my autobiography!!!! I mean Dave Batista's autobiography haha, for all em nooblets who dont know who he is, hes the current reigning WWE world heavy weight champion, every inch of this guy is sheer muscle i tell u, 290 pounds, freaking 100+ kgs. But after reading his book, yeah life is really sheer hell for some of those people living in America, having to starve like he did and crawl his way up to the top just to have a living. We, he has celebrity status now so yeah kudos to him. Anyway in Borders, i was being a total prick to Ian which was damn funny haha, oi Ian!! I got ur book right here man dont worry abt it =)!! LOL, which he would just shake his head and walk away..
Anyway i was on a lucky streak that night, some kind soul gave me his 30% discount card and i think* i found 24 dollars on he loo near the counter. Seriously, i was looking left right centre seeing if anyone was running back or missing cash....until 5 mins pass...so after much comtemplation...i took it. Shit i felt guilty as hell, but decided to use the money to treat my thirsty friends, taxi rides to Dempsey was on me =) Money well spent =). Of course they were teasing me to treat them as well lar, em Dogs!!! So we went there, and the wine was so so so so good seriously, for a 48 dollar house wine bottle it was just so good. Yeah we had a fun time there alright, where Han bought this humongous Cigar and looked every bit a manager in his intern G2000 CLOTHES!! SWEE Ahhh!! But he burnt his shirt in the end lar hahaha.
After that went to rayston's house where they were basically kinda high to say bb an GG HAVE FUN NO RE, cuz hes booking in on sat. Whatever gay shit that happened, literally, im just glad that i kept my word and showed up, if not seriously one more bottle of wine at Dempseys. Gd luck boy, hope u have a change of heart/taste there. I think 2 years of time is more than what my homophobic self would want to do, and that is to run away as though i have a fire up my ass.
Freaking hell, parents ah seriously, damn niao at me going out at night, i have no clue whatsoever as well. Ok come on, i dont smoke, dont do drugs, dont steal, murder, etc etc, and i sure as hell can take care of myself at night. Plus its not like i travel alone right, i travel with friends. So yeah, unreasonable....Ok i admit i shouldnt be bitching abt them but seriously...kns man. Sigh ok over!!
Apparently i bellowed at a woman who stole our cab that night and felt extremely satisfied when i beat some guy flat at yahoo pool. Guess no matter what, the kid in me refuses to die, genes?? Yeah yeah take for example till this day, my dad still wants to engage me in wrestling stunts, and when i fell on my butt at newton mrt, he came runinng t me saying, OH SON DID U HURT THE POOR FLOOR? Gee thanks ah in public....Oh how about the time he shot me in the ass in paintball which was a foul, blatant foul i must add. So yeah i am still a kid, and no matter what people may disapprove, or say, sry but thats the way im gonna be. I guess a year back i would say if u dont like me for the way i am then piss off!! Yeah that was in the past alright but this year, think i ll just smile and walk away....
Aite its gonna be ten soon and we ve got a performance today!! Ciao i ll be singing!!
Monday, December 10, 2007
A penny for your thoughts?
Woohoo!!! Last night i saw Andy Lau at Lido, not bad not bad, he was shorter than i imagined and yeah his nose is quite big lol. No offense man. However if it was Jessica Alba, i think i would have fainted haha. Come on, Asian film industry just cant compare to those in America, Andy Lau vs Brad Pitt, Jackie Chan vs Tom cruise. Cfm the angmos would win lar.
Anyway its 115, better hurry up blog this b4 i go to sleep, if not i dont think i ll ever remember. I guess rule number one that i learned in my holidays is that, always try to see the better side of people. No ones perfect, cause simply put it we re Human, damn right, we sin duh. I ve been hurt b4 not in a physical sense, but eh yeah. Someone i liked made me sound like a parasite, the adjective clinging* was used. I was seriously so freaking pissed off that night, vulgarities came spewing out like free, u know when u really hate a person, all their imperfections are suddenly so mother freaking clear. Its so easy to say shes a total bitch or whatever, but then when i got home it suddenly dawned onto me. You know what, that was really immature of me. She is a nice person and she simply deserves better, so i really should not have bitched abt her like a raving dog.
I guess thats the norm isnt it? When things just dont come to a happy ending or go ur way even small things like, "his hair wahh, really freaking ugly lar", or "the way she talks damn turn off lar". We see all these small insignificant details that really make us have a superficial judgement abt them. All because of us not having our way. Isnt that selfish, or just that horrid moment where we feel nuthin but hatred and disgust? God didnt make us perfect, he gave us the good along with the bad, so see the good in people pls. Dont live in that moment of anger and hatred, its just wrong, i know i did, and yeah i do regret it. Definetely bitching is a thing which no one can avoid, but remembering the good in people, it makes it a whole lot easier to control ones tongue.
So instead of going like 'that cb person makes my life so miserable just by talking to me'
Why not go like " hey actually he/she is quite nice, that time she/he helped me with this thing, i dont really have a strong and valid reason for hating he/she, so why not i just go talk it out?"
And in whatever situation, always remember to be mature and nvr compromise ur dignity for anything. Thats lesson two that i ve learned. Even though shit happens, i liked u u didnt really like me things got awkard i cant bear to look u in the face when i talk to you. U know just suck it up and got talk it out ith the person. "Hey u know that yeah i did like u once, and eh things happened and our friendship got compromised, i mean shit we cant even look each other in the eye anymore and talk, so why not we just put everything aside and start anew as friends?" Dont leave things hanging in the past as well, forgetting may be a solution but trust me it would come back to haunt you one day Cfm. Its easy to say I dont wanna talk to you anymore and F out of my life, but it takes real guts to patch up that friendship, and continue to be friends. Its really a lot of courage needed, but its not impossible.
So yeah i hope i made some sense tonight with my two points. Its just some stuff that i picked up in the holidays, to always see the good in people and be damn mature in all situations. Not saying its easy though, it takes courage lar honestly. But the results would be fantastic. Im taking this chance in Christmas to fight my demons, hanging threads of problems that were left in the past. Im not gonna let them stay there for the rest of my life.
Lets do this.
Anyway its 115, better hurry up blog this b4 i go to sleep, if not i dont think i ll ever remember. I guess rule number one that i learned in my holidays is that, always try to see the better side of people. No ones perfect, cause simply put it we re Human, damn right, we sin duh. I ve been hurt b4 not in a physical sense, but eh yeah. Someone i liked made me sound like a parasite, the adjective clinging* was used. I was seriously so freaking pissed off that night, vulgarities came spewing out like free, u know when u really hate a person, all their imperfections are suddenly so mother freaking clear. Its so easy to say shes a total bitch or whatever, but then when i got home it suddenly dawned onto me. You know what, that was really immature of me. She is a nice person and she simply deserves better, so i really should not have bitched abt her like a raving dog.
I guess thats the norm isnt it? When things just dont come to a happy ending or go ur way even small things like, "his hair wahh, really freaking ugly lar", or "the way she talks damn turn off lar". We see all these small insignificant details that really make us have a superficial judgement abt them. All because of us not having our way. Isnt that selfish, or just that horrid moment where we feel nuthin but hatred and disgust? God didnt make us perfect, he gave us the good along with the bad, so see the good in people pls. Dont live in that moment of anger and hatred, its just wrong, i know i did, and yeah i do regret it. Definetely bitching is a thing which no one can avoid, but remembering the good in people, it makes it a whole lot easier to control ones tongue.
So instead of going like 'that cb person makes my life so miserable just by talking to me'
Why not go like " hey actually he/she is quite nice, that time she/he helped me with this thing, i dont really have a strong and valid reason for hating he/she, so why not i just go talk it out?"
And in whatever situation, always remember to be mature and nvr compromise ur dignity for anything. Thats lesson two that i ve learned. Even though shit happens, i liked u u didnt really like me things got awkard i cant bear to look u in the face when i talk to you. U know just suck it up and got talk it out ith the person. "Hey u know that yeah i did like u once, and eh things happened and our friendship got compromised, i mean shit we cant even look each other in the eye anymore and talk, so why not we just put everything aside and start anew as friends?" Dont leave things hanging in the past as well, forgetting may be a solution but trust me it would come back to haunt you one day Cfm. Its easy to say I dont wanna talk to you anymore and F out of my life, but it takes real guts to patch up that friendship, and continue to be friends. Its really a lot of courage needed, but its not impossible.
So yeah i hope i made some sense tonight with my two points. Its just some stuff that i picked up in the holidays, to always see the good in people and be damn mature in all situations. Not saying its easy though, it takes courage lar honestly. But the results would be fantastic. Im taking this chance in Christmas to fight my demons, hanging threads of problems that were left in the past. Im not gonna let them stay there for the rest of my life.
Lets do this.
Friday, December 07, 2007
Christmas
After gettin suan-ed by the guy whose body looks like crap even though he gyms more than me, and the diva man who doesnt blog anymore (OHHHHHHHHH LOWW BLOWWW!!), its time to pen down more of my thoughts.
I guess sometimes, people say clubbing may not be a gd thing, but it sure as hell is a way u can look at a person's true nature, how well they can control themselves, even under the influence of whatever, whatever and more whatever. Especially for guys, i mean face it, 80% of rapes in the world are committed by us, so we are naturally horny-er. So to all guys out there, pls be a gentleman and always let ur morals, values and brains to control u, not ur dicks pls. Perhaps, whatever happens in the club should stay in the club? I know my friends would tell me to f off, what is the true essence of clubbing? A night of doing something u would regret in the morning?? Worse still if u are 100% a horny dog. I dunno, at least im glad that i do watch after my gone* friends and those being backstabbed* by guys with horns protruding out from them and absolutely reeking of musk. Tell them to F off ok! Sick bastards.
Hmmm so far not bad lar, i ve really been controlling the amt of demerit goods that i consume, freak but should have a fuller dinner b4 gg out with Han and the gang drinking last night. Arena again this sat!! Its really cardo man, dancing non stop, hopefully i could get mistaken as one of the bouncers like in Zouk and then we could use the stage haha!!
Oh well everything in moderation lar ok?? I guess like i told Mdm, this is just a face in my life, i should as hell wont be clubbing when im like 60? Or eh 30? Whatever man, i just hold onto what i believe.
Oh oh oh David, me and brendan wanna go for mdc auditions, eh could u link us up or something?? Pls thanks man.
Anyway this Xmas season, yeah, im pulling out all the stops i guess, i ll be true sincere and all above, mature. Everythings all more or less planned out already so i guess i ll just leave it to God's hand. Mercy man mercy. Even if things explode in my face, i guess im already mature enough to do damage control so yeah, What doesnt Kill You makes u Stronger!!! Speaking of which i wrestled with my dad yesterday when Bong n my mom were looking at childhood pics haha, AND I WON HIM NAHAHHA!!! Simply, true manhunt!!
Shit man other than that, there are certain levels as we all know. Friends and beyond friends, the stupid line that defines them individually is so so so freaking hard.
Like Han said, so do you like her? Or have feelings from her?
........................................................................................................................................................................
Im seriously sitting in front of my com now stumped............................................................................
Ill let God and time decide that shall we =)
I guess sometimes, people say clubbing may not be a gd thing, but it sure as hell is a way u can look at a person's true nature, how well they can control themselves, even under the influence of whatever, whatever and more whatever. Especially for guys, i mean face it, 80% of rapes in the world are committed by us, so we are naturally horny-er. So to all guys out there, pls be a gentleman and always let ur morals, values and brains to control u, not ur dicks pls. Perhaps, whatever happens in the club should stay in the club? I know my friends would tell me to f off, what is the true essence of clubbing? A night of doing something u would regret in the morning?? Worse still if u are 100% a horny dog. I dunno, at least im glad that i do watch after my gone* friends and those being backstabbed* by guys with horns protruding out from them and absolutely reeking of musk. Tell them to F off ok! Sick bastards.
Hmmm so far not bad lar, i ve really been controlling the amt of demerit goods that i consume, freak but should have a fuller dinner b4 gg out with Han and the gang drinking last night. Arena again this sat!! Its really cardo man, dancing non stop, hopefully i could get mistaken as one of the bouncers like in Zouk and then we could use the stage haha!!
Oh well everything in moderation lar ok?? I guess like i told Mdm, this is just a face in my life, i should as hell wont be clubbing when im like 60? Or eh 30? Whatever man, i just hold onto what i believe.
Oh oh oh David, me and brendan wanna go for mdc auditions, eh could u link us up or something?? Pls thanks man.
Anyway this Xmas season, yeah, im pulling out all the stops i guess, i ll be true sincere and all above, mature. Everythings all more or less planned out already so i guess i ll just leave it to God's hand. Mercy man mercy. Even if things explode in my face, i guess im already mature enough to do damage control so yeah, What doesnt Kill You makes u Stronger!!! Speaking of which i wrestled with my dad yesterday when Bong n my mom were looking at childhood pics haha, AND I WON HIM NAHAHHA!!! Simply, true manhunt!!
Shit man other than that, there are certain levels as we all know. Friends and beyond friends, the stupid line that defines them individually is so so so freaking hard.
Like Han said, so do you like her? Or have feelings from her?
........................................................................................................................................................................
Im seriously sitting in front of my com now stumped............................................................................
Ill let God and time decide that shall we =)
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
In whatever be mature and honest*
SOOOOOOOO PROOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM....
Other than the fact that I was (we were all) looking like(s) hot hunk(s) , excluding the girls of course haha. Went to the room to stone for a bit, played cards (ewww) and talked cock haha. Walked all the freaking way from shangrila to taka, mother, to get the goods, alcohol and etc. But it was all worth it haha. The changing was damn rush, cause of the GIRLSSS!!! LoL we were given permission to strip and piss in the same toliet, wtff man hahaha. After wearing my uber suit and looking every bit of a manhunt winner, we were off to the prom!!!
It went fairly well haha, though imust say i felt really bad for the performers, EVERYONE WAS CAM WHORING NON STOP SERIOUSLY. Especially urs truely urs manhunt winner, some song lyrics suddenly came to my head, *im too sexy for myself, im too sexy for myself*.
Ahhhhh feels so good to get in touch with my ego side again Nahahahhahah!!!
Anyway everyone heard brenden singing when he hit his high notes lol, he owns lar that skinny bugger haha. Skinny yet so gd when it comes to high notes....what the freak am i talking?? Hes a tenor no shit jerome. Sorry sorry, thats what u get when u only slept like 5 hrs in two days, knn!
So after prom, was the partea!!! MUSIC!!!! Dancing was great and me and my two cockster friends had our 15mins? nah one minute of fame* We went on the stage cause we were so high from all the alcohol in the room and danced our hearts out, lol it was so thrilling, till one minute lata, the bouncers pushed us off stage......chicken. LoL. Hahah and after prom in Shang, the coucill presidents and choir presidents were called to sing the school athem Again hahah.
It was like "Can we invite the cho..." When i heard that, i straight away stood up and walked to wards the toliets hahah when some guy grabbed me from behind and ok ok lets go sing.
Well, to God and Acjc that song was for you. Although the stupid fact was that i started the song 3 tones higher (according to marcus) so all the men died. Except for brenden lol he said "for once its comfortable for me, no need to use chest voice" lol.....
And soooo that was prom, after arena, we went back to the room where i emo-ed for a while (damn rare pls), and eh we headed back after a short freezing session of sleep haha.
Woke up after freaking little time of sleep and went home with han. There i bathed and changed for choir. LoL my body really felt like shit from all the dancing and the booze...Perharps i ll take a break from all this clubbing nonsense.
Anyway had a bbq later on that day, and slept at 4, cause some mofos wanted to watch heroes......ahhhhh..my eye bagssss..bd girl got tipsy, shit...more funny events happened..nearly c8-ed a fireball by pouring spirit on the pit...etc...im damn tired now....
Gd night all, my bed seems like my best buddy now..
Other than all that, seems it really is the season. Pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls, dont let me screw this up. Actually, after spending so much time with han, i feel so much more prepared for this. Oh well, have a taste of my new found holiday skills.
Manhunt champion has to sleep, TOOOOOO THE WINDOW TOOO THE WALLLLLL!!!
Other than the fact that I was (we were all) looking like(s) hot hunk(s) , excluding the girls of course haha. Went to the room to stone for a bit, played cards (ewww) and talked cock haha. Walked all the freaking way from shangrila to taka, mother, to get the goods, alcohol and etc. But it was all worth it haha. The changing was damn rush, cause of the GIRLSSS!!! LoL we were given permission to strip and piss in the same toliet, wtff man hahaha. After wearing my uber suit and looking every bit of a manhunt winner, we were off to the prom!!!
It went fairly well haha, though imust say i felt really bad for the performers, EVERYONE WAS CAM WHORING NON STOP SERIOUSLY. Especially urs truely urs manhunt winner, some song lyrics suddenly came to my head, *im too sexy for myself, im too sexy for myself*.
Ahhhhh feels so good to get in touch with my ego side again Nahahahhahah!!!
Anyway everyone heard brenden singing when he hit his high notes lol, he owns lar that skinny bugger haha. Skinny yet so gd when it comes to high notes....what the freak am i talking?? Hes a tenor no shit jerome. Sorry sorry, thats what u get when u only slept like 5 hrs in two days, knn!
So after prom, was the partea!!! MUSIC!!!! Dancing was great and me and my two cockster friends had our 15mins? nah one minute of fame* We went on the stage cause we were so high from all the alcohol in the room and danced our hearts out, lol it was so thrilling, till one minute lata, the bouncers pushed us off stage......chicken. LoL. Hahah and after prom in Shang, the coucill presidents and choir presidents were called to sing the school athem Again hahah.
It was like "Can we invite the cho..." When i heard that, i straight away stood up and walked to wards the toliets hahah when some guy grabbed me from behind and ok ok lets go sing.
Well, to God and Acjc that song was for you. Although the stupid fact was that i started the song 3 tones higher (according to marcus) so all the men died. Except for brenden lol he said "for once its comfortable for me, no need to use chest voice" lol.....
And soooo that was prom, after arena, we went back to the room where i emo-ed for a while (damn rare pls), and eh we headed back after a short freezing session of sleep haha.
Woke up after freaking little time of sleep and went home with han. There i bathed and changed for choir. LoL my body really felt like shit from all the dancing and the booze...Perharps i ll take a break from all this clubbing nonsense.
Anyway had a bbq later on that day, and slept at 4, cause some mofos wanted to watch heroes......ahhhhh..my eye bagssss..bd girl got tipsy, shit...more funny events happened..nearly c8-ed a fireball by pouring spirit on the pit...etc...im damn tired now....
Gd night all, my bed seems like my best buddy now..
Other than all that, seems it really is the season. Pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls, dont let me screw this up. Actually, after spending so much time with han, i feel so much more prepared for this. Oh well, have a taste of my new found holiday skills.
Manhunt champion has to sleep, TOOOOOO THE WINDOW TOOO THE WALLLLLL!!!
Friday, November 30, 2007
My regrets*
So it was after the glorious As. It began.
The long nights of booze getting high and wasted, the clubbing, etc.
I guess i lost myself in the sins of the flesh.
Sigh, it turns out that even as we celebrate and party and have fun.
The people who do need us, are neglected.
I guess this is really more than a CCA after all.
I really do feel ashamed of myself. People said, but its over what. No its not.
Perhaps i should really do some soul searching to ask myself on what Bong told me today.
Enjoyment vs Responsibility?
Why do we go back?
Not because I was told to, but i want to help out.
GET SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The long nights of booze getting high and wasted, the clubbing, etc.
I guess i lost myself in the sins of the flesh.
Sigh, it turns out that even as we celebrate and party and have fun.
The people who do need us, are neglected.
I guess this is really more than a CCA after all.
I really do feel ashamed of myself. People said, but its over what. No its not.
Perhaps i should really do some soul searching to ask myself on what Bong told me today.
Enjoyment vs Responsibility?
Why do we go back?
Not because I was told to, but i want to help out.
GET SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, November 26, 2007
Enjoy*
Alrighttt somehow i managed to convert Kiat's file successfully...So without any furthur ado..
Presenting to you the pro DDR man!!! Mr. Kiat!!!
Oh yeah gd luck to all who are taking lit later, me included lol.
Presenting to you the pro DDR man!!! Mr. Kiat!!!
Oh yeah gd luck to all who are taking lit later, me included lol.
As the prozzz Ian says "Ready"
Let the fun begin =)
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Angsty*
Rawrrr...
Choir workshop today was good.
But for some strange reason, i felt damn angsty when i came home. Probably because of my parents. They are so freaking restictive because of my bro in army already. Seriously. I mean like its not that i take drugs, or smoke or etc right. Also, its highly unlikely that i would get robbed or cant take care of myself, pls.
Sighh really damn sian now. Just i need to do a Kiat to help myself. Oh yeah hed freaking ownage at dance revolution, while i on the other hand, am para para pro. Watch and have a gd laugh at his uberness =). Sometimes i just need a gd laugh to feel better after taking shit.
Freak somehow i cant upload the damn video.
Ok fine fine. Use my para para video...
Choir workshop today was good.
But for some strange reason, i felt damn angsty when i came home. Probably because of my parents. They are so freaking restictive because of my bro in army already. Seriously. I mean like its not that i take drugs, or smoke or etc right. Also, its highly unlikely that i would get robbed or cant take care of myself, pls.
Sighh really damn sian now. Just i need to do a Kiat to help myself. Oh yeah hed freaking ownage at dance revolution, while i on the other hand, am para para pro. Watch and have a gd laugh at his uberness =). Sometimes i just need a gd laugh to feel better after taking shit.
Freak somehow i cant upload the damn video.
Ok fine fine. Use my para para video...
Yeah that brought back some fun memories alright..Hope the week gets better.
2 more days to freedom =)
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Someday*
So its been fantastic day of gymming, swmming and have fun with friends =)
Visited Han's blog just now and really, i guess, sometimes we just dont get what we really want the most.
Ok taking it from me, i dont have any personal experience in this matter. But after having talked to him and sharing our worries with each other. However gay it may seem i do feel proud for him being such a gracious man and sad yet for not being able to succeed..i dunno, hope still lingers in the future..
I can look up to him for the amount of dedication he poured into his relationship and for being the few who really showed me that true love exists even though people say we re so freaking, young. People seem emo and all that shit b4, no shit i ve seen and been a sucker myself, but this is really true love.
Yeah i do really feel sad for him, perharps i ll experience this shit too in the future. Who knows. A true man a true man i ll give it to him. I really dont want to judge, i mean i side him cause hes my friend, so that gives me a bias opinion. But really, i ve nvr seen such devotion b4. Give it up for him.
This just proves the saying "Life is unfair" or Nelly Furtado's "All gd things must come to an end"
Sad lar just sad.
They say the Xmas season is where healing happens, pray it happens to him.
Me? Guess my favourite saying these days is im too old for this shit..I just cant stand the feeling of seeing my friends gettin hurt in the process.
Running away? I guess i have valid reasons to, after a long Fuc*ed up history. Xmas Xmas come faster and let me sing........
Thank you for the music.
The songs I m singing.
Thanks for all the joy we re bringing.
Who can live without it?
So i say thank you for the music for giving it to me.
Visited Han's blog just now and really, i guess, sometimes we just dont get what we really want the most.
Ok taking it from me, i dont have any personal experience in this matter. But after having talked to him and sharing our worries with each other. However gay it may seem i do feel proud for him being such a gracious man and sad yet for not being able to succeed..i dunno, hope still lingers in the future..
I can look up to him for the amount of dedication he poured into his relationship and for being the few who really showed me that true love exists even though people say we re so freaking, young. People seem emo and all that shit b4, no shit i ve seen and been a sucker myself, but this is really true love.
Yeah i do really feel sad for him, perharps i ll experience this shit too in the future. Who knows. A true man a true man i ll give it to him. I really dont want to judge, i mean i side him cause hes my friend, so that gives me a bias opinion. But really, i ve nvr seen such devotion b4. Give it up for him.
This just proves the saying "Life is unfair" or Nelly Furtado's "All gd things must come to an end"
Sad lar just sad.
They say the Xmas season is where healing happens, pray it happens to him.
Me? Guess my favourite saying these days is im too old for this shit..I just cant stand the feeling of seeing my friends gettin hurt in the process.
Running away? I guess i have valid reasons to, after a long Fuc*ed up history. Xmas Xmas come faster and let me sing........
Thank you for the music.
The songs I m singing.
Thanks for all the joy we re bringing.
Who can live without it?
So i say thank you for the music for giving it to me.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
YOWZA!!!
ITS OVERRRRR!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO SWEE AH!!!!
then again still have lit on 26th haiz.
Oh man the feeling of ending As is just so great. Soon its gonna be loads of fun, partying and gymming, etc,etc.
Today was kinda weird, the econs case studies were just damn like ok. Dunno whether i can ace or not. Oh well whats done is done yeah!!
Anyway went with Yanni Tiny and Chris to look at potential prom clothes. Seriously, it was like miles of non stop walking lol. I find that girls have a wider range of fashion and mixing and matching for them is complicated. But who says guys where any easier?? I guess it wouldn't be lar casue the suits and the button shirts in them are so hard to mix, worse my jacket is some weird blue black green thing. OH MY SUN!!! Basketttttt!! Hahah we had a great time laughing at each other, ok lar basket me mostly, but still!!! Quality time with friends yeah!!
Benn reading Bong's muscleman magazine that he gave to me last Xmas, lawl, i guess body building may kinda appeal to me lar. But then again im like 171 cm thats quite freaking short?? MAYBE?????????????????????????????????????? i really really guess for Asians thats acceptable lar. But my weight is like woahhhh....Muscle mass muscle mass i hope to believe haha. Hmmm i ve also been considering working as a bouncer..maybe? Who knows man although i have height problems, but i ve been mistaken for one b4. Perharps, perharps. Arghh so many things to do after As!! Work out, maybe cause i really am a himbo, like i said man maybe..Play intensive amt of pool, have fun chill out, not to mention party!!!
So anyway todays the 16th? 17 more days to prom...
For everyday its gonna be training for me, some personal goals i hope to achieve.
1) Everyday gym around 11 lets see need a nice five circuit training.
Should be cycling machine warm up, chest, back, abs, abs wings. Yeah that should be enuff to kill me. Followed by a one hour swim in the afternoon hot sun. Swee..
2) Improve in pool skills. Get me own cue, etc.
3) Spend time in choir
4) This so should be first, strengthen my faith
5) Party hard-in celebration of friendships =)
6) Die die attend carrolling
7) Clean up my past mistakes and strengthen some friendships too.
Heres a toast to the upcoming end of A levels and to a great time before 25 Jan =)
Care for a dance?
then again still have lit on 26th haiz.
Oh man the feeling of ending As is just so great. Soon its gonna be loads of fun, partying and gymming, etc,etc.
Today was kinda weird, the econs case studies were just damn like ok. Dunno whether i can ace or not. Oh well whats done is done yeah!!
Anyway went with Yanni Tiny and Chris to look at potential prom clothes. Seriously, it was like miles of non stop walking lol. I find that girls have a wider range of fashion and mixing and matching for them is complicated. But who says guys where any easier?? I guess it wouldn't be lar casue the suits and the button shirts in them are so hard to mix, worse my jacket is some weird blue black green thing. OH MY SUN!!! Basketttttt!! Hahah we had a great time laughing at each other, ok lar basket me mostly, but still!!! Quality time with friends yeah!!
Benn reading Bong's muscleman magazine that he gave to me last Xmas, lawl, i guess body building may kinda appeal to me lar. But then again im like 171 cm thats quite freaking short?? MAYBE?????????????????????????????????????? i really really guess for Asians thats acceptable lar. But my weight is like woahhhh....Muscle mass muscle mass i hope to believe haha. Hmmm i ve also been considering working as a bouncer..maybe? Who knows man although i have height problems, but i ve been mistaken for one b4. Perharps, perharps. Arghh so many things to do after As!! Work out, maybe cause i really am a himbo, like i said man maybe..Play intensive amt of pool, have fun chill out, not to mention party!!!
So anyway todays the 16th? 17 more days to prom...
For everyday its gonna be training for me, some personal goals i hope to achieve.
1) Everyday gym around 11 lets see need a nice five circuit training.
Should be cycling machine warm up, chest, back, abs, abs wings. Yeah that should be enuff to kill me. Followed by a one hour swim in the afternoon hot sun. Swee..
2) Improve in pool skills. Get me own cue, etc.
3) Spend time in choir
4) This so should be first, strengthen my faith
5) Party hard-in celebration of friendships =)
6) Die die attend carrolling
7) Clean up my past mistakes and strengthen some friendships too.
Heres a toast to the upcoming end of A levels and to a great time before 25 Jan =)
Care for a dance?
Saturday, November 10, 2007
I see yourrr truee coloursssss*
Dejavu thats what happened to me today.
Had breakfast with my pal Han and had a long talk about after As and other relevant stuff.
After that went for the wake. It was really sad, though i did not know Mdm very well. I am so grateful for what the parents* of the choir family have done for the generations that learned under their legacy. I guess a part of me was being evil, trying to devise horrid reasons why people did not turn up and why people were actually there. That part of me deserves to die honestly. People have their own reasons regardless, and we must not be naive, but trusting and loving. (Read about Han's trust in www.lauhan-loong-blogspot.com) For me personally, i love this family* and so i will contribute in the least possible way i can, even if it means burning precious time. Ok im really not blaming anyone here, just that one thing someone said to me got to me. "why isnt everyone here?"
I guess thats life isnt it? People would always choose their owns paths eventually, God bless them whatever paths they have chosen, but when the call is made, how many would return? Once again, individual decision has no fault, its just reality check, how many people would die for their country as an example? How many? I can tell u this for sure, not everyone. So dont be naive, its reality, painful and angry as i feel, it is Not Right for Me to feel this way. Simply because, i am the master of no one but myself. Why is it we have crime and political backstabbings in business and even in the area of school teaching? Why is it such bad stuff exist? Satan? Must be...But i dunno...Just hold steadfast to what u believe and be true to yourself, whatever decisions we make, is our own choice, our own consequences to enjoy* in the future.
Dont mind me, im just merely commenting on the possible/potential existence of splinters in other people's eye when i have a gigantic tree trunk in my own.
Sigh life's just not perfect isnt it? No ones perfect, but i really do try to see the gd side of people and not the bad, however in some cases seriously KNN. Its just so freaking blatant, dont mind me, just that one of my best friends got played. So why would anyone choose to play somebody?
Is it the evil that lurks inside them? The thrill of it or what? Or is it mistaken identity of love that i so cannot see? Perharps, i ve nvr tasted the sweet necter of it before. So freaking pissed off now....Do whats right do whats right do whats right...so easy to talk so hard to do...why would anyone try to play someone?
Im not afraid, all players out there who hate me? Just bring it. Or if it discomforts you reading this, u ve come to the wrong blog, and can just bugger off.
I think after today, really. I see ur/people's true colours, thats apt. Reality is not pretty, its tough and hard, but all in all, believe in urself and ur own core values. Be mature about all situations and fight the good fight in life.
Maybe we should all do what the powerpuff girls sing*
"Love love love love love love love love love makes the world go round"
But in conclusion "You reap what you sow"
Had breakfast with my pal Han and had a long talk about after As and other relevant stuff.
After that went for the wake. It was really sad, though i did not know Mdm very well. I am so grateful for what the parents* of the choir family have done for the generations that learned under their legacy. I guess a part of me was being evil, trying to devise horrid reasons why people did not turn up and why people were actually there. That part of me deserves to die honestly. People have their own reasons regardless, and we must not be naive, but trusting and loving. (Read about Han's trust in www.lauhan-loong-blogspot.com) For me personally, i love this family* and so i will contribute in the least possible way i can, even if it means burning precious time. Ok im really not blaming anyone here, just that one thing someone said to me got to me. "why isnt everyone here?"
I guess thats life isnt it? People would always choose their owns paths eventually, God bless them whatever paths they have chosen, but when the call is made, how many would return? Once again, individual decision has no fault, its just reality check, how many people would die for their country as an example? How many? I can tell u this for sure, not everyone. So dont be naive, its reality, painful and angry as i feel, it is Not Right for Me to feel this way. Simply because, i am the master of no one but myself. Why is it we have crime and political backstabbings in business and even in the area of school teaching? Why is it such bad stuff exist? Satan? Must be...But i dunno...Just hold steadfast to what u believe and be true to yourself, whatever decisions we make, is our own choice, our own consequences to enjoy* in the future.
Dont mind me, im just merely commenting on the possible/potential existence of splinters in other people's eye when i have a gigantic tree trunk in my own.
Sigh life's just not perfect isnt it? No ones perfect, but i really do try to see the gd side of people and not the bad, however in some cases seriously KNN. Its just so freaking blatant, dont mind me, just that one of my best friends got played. So why would anyone choose to play somebody?
Is it the evil that lurks inside them? The thrill of it or what? Or is it mistaken identity of love that i so cannot see? Perharps, i ve nvr tasted the sweet necter of it before. So freaking pissed off now....Do whats right do whats right do whats right...so easy to talk so hard to do...why would anyone try to play someone?
Im not afraid, all players out there who hate me? Just bring it. Or if it discomforts you reading this, u ve come to the wrong blog, and can just bugger off.
I think after today, really. I see ur/people's true colours, thats apt. Reality is not pretty, its tough and hard, but all in all, believe in urself and ur own core values. Be mature about all situations and fight the good fight in life.
Maybe we should all do what the powerpuff girls sing*
"Love love love love love love love love love makes the world go round"
But in conclusion "You reap what you sow"
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