When everyone else is having exams*

Lol im too darn darn lazy to initate anything..

Lifes been pretty boring just the usual routine of gymming, swimming, running etc.

Oh yeah, Kelvin and I a.k.a Behemoth, took an extra lap around the camp today, closing our distance to around 5 km? Estimated around there.

Some Ite dude saw me and told me later in camp "Wah, when i saw u i panic man, i tot u were were officer" =)

Grins*

Hahaha, yes my friend ur not the first to have said that i am indeed officer or commando material haha. Oh well, never judge a book by its cover c9l2! =) But that jog took my ankle out for the day, it was aching like mad. Freaking pissing me off.

So what have i been up to? Honestly? Chickling.....haha the army slang for meeting new friends*

Honestly speaking, i think that as we grow up, we no longer go just for looks? I mean individual standard is still individual standard after all. Ur own preference and liking. However, i find that at the end of the day, its all about connections and how well u can relate to the other half. Thats the most important i feel, some sense of stability, rather than superficial judgement.

Keep in mind still friends, individual standards.

I mean i do have friends telling me in camp about some hot chick*( its a slang) that they saw on the bus and etc etc, "dude shes so hott". Maybe its army, maybe its the excessive amount of homo nights that we spend together, maybe we re just guys.

Lol, i do find it a bit bo liao* Honestly, not that im dishing them! Haha i mean hans and I talk a whole lot of cock about those NS Ord liao punks with long hair stealing our JC chicks and how we re gonna crash Prom night parties and all. How we know this girl from a friend, how shes attached and the usual sentence "Wah lao Bf only can break up one what.." LoL

Really really really a whole Lot Of Cock And Bull man. Its crazy lol.

But i know at the end of the day, connections and stability is all that matters, to me at least, u guys have ur own opinions lol. Im glad that im pretty much over the superficial looks phase, honestly, im too darn lazy to hold long msn convos, unless im really into u lol.

So enough with the rants!

Just wanted to say all the best to Uni kids with ur exams and Jc kids too with ur A levels! All the best!!!

Ok ok the video im about to show is heavy death metal. Its not satanic according to my friend, mr kelvin cheena behemoth lol.

IF U CANT STOMACH HEAVY MUSIC AND DO NOT HAVE AN OPEN MIND DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT WATCH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEHEMOTH SLAVE SHALL SERVE. GENRE OF MUSIC, HEAVY DEATH METAL. It scared me first time lol.

So far in point form*

Well well well, lifes been pretty interesting so far haha.

What to say, God's been throwing stuff at me one after the other, i got a hunch a trial's coming up real soon.

1) I made 2 very cool friends in camp, Kelvin is a cheena dude, he really looks cheena and stuff, but he really makes me laugh everyday till im tearing. He introduced me to heavy metal satanic music nonsense, which i found pretty amusing and entertaining. Needless to say, although disturbed by it, it is bloody hilarious to MOSH together hardcore style in camp

The other champion is Jonathan who i call by 4 nicknames in camp, no kidding. Bo ji (meaning no balls), fucking idiot, fucking moron and simple Jon as per tropic thunder. We have this gym master and gym disciple relationship going on, and now and then, because of the fact that this 84 kg always talks cock or jakks himself, hans and I will beat him up together. WWE style. Oh yes hes a metal head too, his electric guitar skills are off the charts and he moshes too.

Hahaha its really really hilarious. Gotta be in my position to see the crude humour in this.

Strange how im getting along with different people i never ever met b4, its like we can clique really well and do stupid stuff togther, be it moshing while area cleaning or being gay, or even practicing javelin using wooden rakes.

The vulgarities in camp, the gayness of constantly slapping each others asses, the punching and abusing of each other (in a joking manner of course, no fights), talking abt guy issues, girls, certain websites heh heh, dream girls and etc; its just part of a Singaporean male's rite of passage in his life.

EXPERIENCE A BIT OF EVERYTHING IN LIFE AS I ALWAYS LIKE TO SAY!!!!

It almost, almost makes me wonder if we live properly in a all male society. HELL NO!!! Not because im homophobic, but yeah whose going to reel us in when our testostorone levels hit beyond a certain level??

We need the other gender??????............................................................LoL i sound so much like a MCP.

Anyway, im looking forward to zouking with Bo Ji/Simple Jon and my old friend this fri, celebrating some dude's bd. As well as technoing and shuffling with Han this Sat night at New and Improved IRUNOURS! lol

Good luck to Uni kids with ur exams as well!!!

Oh yeah i hired a gym insructor too, and im really hoping he ll push me to the extent that i ll feel like puking my guts out after every session. Looking forward to it! LoL. Feeding my ego, i suspect im the fastest runner among the 70 plus people in my camp that go for live runs every mon wed and fri. HEH HEH! Take that from an overweight C9L2 dude! Yowza!

So im still young and living out the rest of my teenage years

It aint long before we start wanting to settle down

I longed for maturity time and time again

Tasted what love felt like

Opened my eyes to more things that i never thought i would

So maybe i ll do something crazy time and time again

So maybe i ll worry of what people will think of me in time to come

But theres no need to feel insecure

Its part and parcel of growing up

Hey genetically speaking, i love my dad for still being childish at 50

Hes cool

Most of all, as long as nothing distracts me from God

Own time own target

CARRY ON!!!!! =)

The Good, the bad and the naughty*

Well in no order, my weekend was rather mild, chillax is term for it lol.

1) Watched tropic thunder. (Hilarious i tell u)

2) Played an awesome session of squash, till my tank top was soaked with sweat.

2) Went drinking in at orchard towers, some pub/club there

3) Shuffled while wearing kidish clothing in front of the popular residents of orchard towers. That was an experience. They tried to copy me btw lol.

4) Went for my first ever photo shoot with a model at some deserted place. That too was an experience. Pics looked pretty decent, will upload them asap lol.

5) Went to my aunties' Pub with my relatives and nieces, KTV and drank beer with them too lol, oh my mom went too. Man, i just realised the major benefits of being a tenor. Singing songs even such as Elton John was quite a problem for me. So who sings B2 other than classical genre??? dammit...It was fun seeing my mom going back decades back again to enjoy some gd old singing, my gwadddd.

The zouk idea just seems more feasible now in my head, yes, yes..

I think that in life, theres always a grey area, u cant be the extreme of two sides to a coin. I know its pretty simply to say right or wrong, but i guess in reality its different.

its late

Gd night ya ll

Why R n B is still the prefered genre*

This is why Akon is so famous, because the hooks he sings are one of the best. =)

Catchy isn't it? I can so imagine us dancing to this beat all night long.

Lol, different strokes for differents folks, yes, but dont waste ur youth away!!

Where my party people at?

Good friends*

Its all so true, sadistically and sadly.

But the fact is that, without any restrains or hardships in life, we will never ever grow up, nor learn to treasure the smallest things around us. Imagine having a holiday for an entire year, not having to study, that would indeed make life so meaningless.

We need trials and tribulations to force ourselves to see the bigger picture and push beyond our comfort zones, and what we ever thought we could do.

I havent seen Tin y, Tze Shun and Yanni in a while.

Meeting up with them along with Han and Ian was so very refreshing. It made me realise how much i missed them. Talking cock and laughing about trival matters again. One example would be clubbing, (lol), its not the fun we had inside there, be it good or bad, it was more of the memories that we all created with each other.

Memories that would last us a lifetime. Thanks to Han for organising this awesome dinner indeed lol.

Perhaps if i saw them everyday i would start taking them for granted? Possibly, though i dont think i would ever do that, its human i guess. But anyway the fact is i had an awesome kick ass dinner tonight.

The hardship that we are going through now, whatever it may be, will only serve to enhance the happiness and satisfaction that we will enjoy later, in life.

As I continue to grow through life and the teachings of the people in my life, my elders, seniors and even juniors. I learn to treasure time spent with people, friends, and yes, i learn to love them too, even more so. No matter how much i receive in return, because it doesnt matter.

Irumours On Sat, see my techno dancing how Zaizzz, lol.
What can i say? Army boys =) Ah bengs For The Win.

Crazy Baby the spirit of the motion dont let me feel devotion..haha, hilarious i tell you.
Drink like a king dance like a pro!!

Yes yes everything in moderation.

This is not going well*

Well, its a raining and sleepy sunday, i just woke up from my hour long nap.

It kinda felt as though i slept for 6 hours and woke up for green black and brown the next day.

Once again i had that dream, same as the night before.

Its the kind of dreams, when u think about an issue intensively enough, you ll actually dream abt it, and lets just say it wasnt too pleasant for me.

Its like, everytime, opportunity comes, i feel as though im an actor, pretending to be ignorant and more concerned about other things. But even the slightest whism, bring my attention to you. Ultimately, no matter how much i talk about it or express how i feel inside, secretly, it takes two to tango.

Sigh, i am still Raw.

On the other hand, i met some choir grand junior in town last night when she was with her bf? Childish punk lookin guy, it was nine something near ten outside the toys s rus there. LOL why the freak am i so concerned my choir grand juniors' bf!! (No offence to ur bf, my lst impression of him is just bad thats all). Anyway, i pangseh samuel and xingay for a while and went to chat with her. Looking very sad indeed, she was worried about failing her Promos and getting retained. I said some stuff to her, but think i ll get mah chen zhong the dog to give her some advice, think that ll make her feel tons better =) But of course, i ll pray she doesnt get retained. Thinking about it, although not ideal, retaining is not the end of the world, its just another chance for you, so grab it and make urself feel happy in the process!

Met Leheng few hours back on the bus, she was going to her bfs place, a.k.a Mr rich guy lol. To study apparently, and perhaps some romance?? HAHAH JK LEHENG!! LOL

Ah, Cupid does indeed have a thing or two for choir folks i just realized. Congrats to Chen Zhong too, u know what i mean dog =).

Well, i hope they ll all be extremely happy with each other and yeah, how am i suppose to say it? I don't know how to use love as a vocab, because to me, its so vague. Just love each other as long as u possibly can. There, much better.

With God's blessing too. =)

Rawr, i broke my hiatus on sat by drinking a cup of beer with samuel at chips! Shucks, back to the drawing board!

Im singing Come Go With Me now, its so apt haha. COVER UR EARS! SAVE THE WOMEN AND CHILDREN FIRST!!

Come come come come, come into my heart....
Yes i need you, yes i really need you.....
U never give me a chance..

Ciao!

Can u smell it, its gonna be Xmas soon =)

Cause i put my faith in believing, that everything will be alright thanks to God*

You reap what u sow indeed.

Last night was pretty bad, long island tea is indeed undrinkable.

A painful lesson in camp today.

So the hiatus will seriously begin.

XINGAYS COMING BACK ON FRI!! YOWZA! Lol time to pwn some skinny ass in pool, gym, swimming and lan. Im looking forward to them homo nights!!

BROS OVER .........!!! As much as i want to yell it, we cant do without each other =) SERIOUSLY!

Im terribly worried for something and i cant do anything in my power abt it.

But i prayed.

I KNOW its going to turn out well. Please Lord.

To always see the bigger picture* I am getting old btw

So i went for a hair cut late at night, to cineleisure's supercut, managed to trick Andy, the guy who always cuts my hair, into thinking i was still schooling, again. Haha! Take that recession!!

Anyway, i was talking with dad about business and stuff when he gave me a lift there.

Seriously, after talking with him, i felt kind of ashamed for slighty neglecting them for the past few weeks going through all that bundle of emotion. For not looking at the bigger picture and always thinking abt my own welfare, yeah im sorry. It didnt help that he didnt sound too hopeful about the company and stuff. Sigh.

Walking home from cineleisure took quite a while, but it was worth it, enjoying the night scenery while listening to ur favourite music was indeed, a very chillax session. LoL, forgive my usage of novice vocabulary.

Yeah, our parents who are working are definetely being affected by the whole US issue. Sigh guess we can just pray more and hopefully spend less.

COME ON PAP! BRING ON THOSE EXPANSIONARY FISCAL POLICIES!! SPEND ON US U FOOLS! WE NEED IT!!! COME ON!

K fine, we trust u, but pls dont take ur own sweet time.

Going on another hiatus*

Ok fine health reasons.

I really do think the weekly alcohol thing is geting to me.

Time to take a break, enough with the army mentality to source for alcohol and dance for destressing outlets. Time to start living a healthy lifestyle.

Kk today was gd, swam and cycled at one go. Hey i got a nice tan ok, lol, a touch o vanity there excuse moi.

Went back to have dinner with parents, Han's family, and Roy my bro's bro.

Adele, han's sis, "Jerome i think ur muscles are disintegrating''

Me, ''holy crap........''

.....
...

I VE HAD IT WITH THESE M*****F******* COMMENTS ABT MY M****F***** BODY!

Ok fine, maybe quoting Samuel L. Jackson isn't really appropriate here, but still, its just feels apt at the right moment lol.

Anyway yes, she does have a point, hence the __weeks hiatus shall begin.

Roy ''Jerome do u want a glass of wine?''

Me "No thanks, (deciding to be cheeky), i dont drink"

Han, my mom, Roy bursts out laughing, SARCASTICALLY I MAY ADD!

My dad, aunty and i think Adele, merely smiles.

Roy "U should have seen him at Jon's 21th party!''
Han (wants to say all the experiences we had, but decides to hold it in)

Didnt expect the response to be a big hoo ha.
OK NOT GD!!!! THE WARNING SIGNS ARE ALL GOING OFF.

Time to change.

On a serious note. I am the kind of person who would go all out for something, just pondering a random scenario. If my friend were to commit suicide, i ll seriously chop my fingers one by one to scare him/her to avoid jumping.

Yes yes gory and extreme. I dont know why, but i just cant adopt the Ur-Tai-Ji mentality. Its just not me, not the way i ve been brought up. Why am i posting this, one might ask?

Question is should i change?

On another note.

Im only say, 85% there yet, still not fully recovered.

"BAH!" bellows the ah beng, in me.

Lord im doing, all i can, (strum strum), to be a better man*

God will provide*

Even during those times, it was kinda hard.

But thankfully, God is Good. Army exams, even with the absence of my good buddies, new people came along. Catch up sessions, etc.

And yes, i agree to a certain blog post, heh, that, just because people do not give a damn about you, doesnt mean u should do the same to them.

Thats just foolish, but non the less, we are human after all, and naturally, we will tire out and not care anymore.

But with God's grace, we can much stronger than what we actually are.

Rites of passage for both guys and girls like i said, people have gone through this and recovered fully, so why cant we?

Shit i feel so old now a days, no more R n B and all that nonsense.

Its a natural progression i guess.

RAWR I REFUSE TO FEEL SO OLD!!!!!

kk i shall endeavour to pretend to be 16 from now on.

Heh!

Upcoming events folks!
Family outing at thumpers with dad mom, dad's credit card heh heh, *ka-ching*, and friends
Oktober Fest with gym folks!!
And more catching up too!

Ok, anyone wanna urm watch a movie or play Lan? Up for some late night basketball? Oh wait, 16 years old have curfew , or maybe rebel a bit and go for some underage party....gasp..

Clubbing, so Exciting!! Hope i dont get bounced!!!! Omg, so many drinks, all so expensive, i just want my normal vodka mixed with anything!

Lol who am i trying to kid, sorry folks i just felt bored.



Night yall =)

More than meets the eye, everyone has a God given beauty in them, no matter what*

Andrew Johnston, what a voice. Hes been bullied since age of 6. We all have our own individual problems, past and present. I guess what matters is that there will always be people around for us. And no matter what people say, there will always be a beautiful side in you, somewhere.

Let 2009 be that change*

Care for a dance?*

This is highly entertaining, im gonna practice secretly at home LOL.

I need a partner, any takers??!

This one's for you, Miss Foo*

Its kinda funny how things turned out in the end, well, i don't know for sure what the future beholds for us, our friendship, etc.

Throughout all the problems, the arguments, the sensitive issuses, I blame most of it all on my lack of experience with dealing in situations such as these; the fact remains that what we felt for each other was real.

Im not sure how things are gonna be like from now on already.

I ve learnt a great deal of lessons the hard way from this. The tears i shed secretly, how ironic now that im typing this aint it?

Well, first things first, thanks to God Father in Heaven who helped me perserve through all of the pains and emotional relapses that i endured. Once again for exposing all my weaknesses at one go as well too.

You, for always being so understanding and forgiving.

My friends for supporting me in being happy, although i never followed any of your advices.

It was complicated/screwed up/fucked up at times.

But one thing's for sure.

You were the best thing that happened to me this year.

So without further ado.

Time for some R n B*

Thank you my friend, heres a toast to us in the future =)

Miss Foo*

If u still love him, please go back to him.

Im not worthy enough for anything more than close friends, if its still gonna be possible after this. Heh.

Just keep your promise of doing your best for ur academics, please.

And dont worry about hurting me or breaking my heart, i wont die.

Music, endorphines and friends to distract me from the frequent bouts of emotions.

I have let my heart win too many times already, time to use more brains and logic.

Prayer helps too =)

I am not going to revert to some childish young immature boy*

You*

I never ever imagined it would hurt this bad.

I know whats right, but my feelings scream in conflict.

I admit that i ve said some wrong things and perhaps things which have complicated matters.

Through all the problems, the laughs, this short period of time.

The fact remains that,

I like you so very much.

I so hope that everything will turn out right and for the better.

Cause i feel so much for you.

I feel extremely vulnerable now, presented to you on a silver platter.

Isnt it ironic of how true it is that, what goes around comes around?

Sigh.

I don't know and Nothing*

I ll let the pictures do the talking*

I have noticed that recently, i ve been posting a lot about myself.





Well, isnt't that the whole purpose of a blog, one might ask?





Well, some events happened, and lifes not always abt me, its about my dear friends too.

Happy belated bd my brother =)

Im an endorphine junkie*

Ho hum, my parents and bro left singapore for USA Washington. For a period of estimated 14 days. Need to say, a house party has already happened at my place, with loads of left over booze too.

Wtching them left at the departure gate, i really cant believe all soon life has passes. 19 years and my bro will be studying in a foreign country. Shocking myself, i felt tears of sadness welling up in my eyes, crying over my brother...hmmm.

Ok, i guess this is what people always talk about, not missing somone badly till they leave you. Ok OK so hes coming abck for Xmas, but then i dunno how to explain this sensation, i was an emo wreck on friday seriously, and surprisingly it wasnt over the fairer sex. Lol.

Ah well, fri was really a double edged sword, freedom and sadness combined. How ironic.

Nonthe less the house party was good, too bad people had to leave early.

Went for a wedding the next morning, haha. The groom waited for his bride, for apparently 10 years.......TEN WHOLE YEARS....OH MY SUNNNNNNNN LOL. That my friends, is DEDICATION!!!! LOL..

Emoing my sat too, thank God for my niggar bro XinGay, tkaing me for runs and gymming sessions, plus talking cock too. The endorphines produced in ur brain really helps u a lot, just realized that. Felt so much better, its like being at home just makes me feel emo and all that shit.
Looking back, like i said lar, true i have fucked up certain occasions, but thats cause i was young and foolish, insert in a it of logic and maturity, added with help from God, everythings gonna be alrighttttt...no one..no one...No oneee, lol Alicia Keys. Sorry that was random..

It still take two hands to clap.

Oh oh had French lesson on friday hahaha it was SO GOOODDD, Ian and myself totally enjoyed our very first lesson, with a french teacher who flirts like crazy haha.

Key word i learned that day, JE T^AIME!! In english it means I love You. awwwww haha, now u know why french guys do make women fall heads over heels lol.

The language is so beautiful, and the culture compliments it further. Ok ok so Shu wei says when it gets the numbers, it ll be a pain in the ass, but so far so good =)

I wanna use this temporary freedom to meet up with old friends and catch up with God, ok bad excuse i should have done it at a regular pace, all the time more like it.

Enchante!! Nice to meet you!

I hope all goes well today with what i have in mind. To add another chapter to my record of being a zero fighter. If i keep this up, my grandma's gonna so kill me, haha.

But seriously. Thanks to the Lord God, for giving me such wonderful parents and sibling too.

Family family, for those who know me, its kinda awkward for me to say this, but im gonna do it anyway. To my family,

JE T'AIME

Cause i aint no superman, im just a guy trying to help*

Guess i saw a different side of singapore..

The protected Junior College higher education, aways from all relationships and links from Poly people and ITE.

Major differences in lifestyle? The level of openess, the courage and ability to rotate among the four bases with ease.

The lack of discipline, the so called fun in that, the thrill the excitement, the created sensation of love. Lust is not denied, self control is being tested and morales are strained..

People blame it on age, or use it as an excuse to satisfy themselves..

Who we are, what we are. So apparent, especially for first time impressions.

The courage to deny the system of monkey see monkey do, thats real courage, to say no. To stand firm and do whats right. To sacrifice fun? For safety and welfare of others...

Whose to blame? Dont be naive underneath that veil of traditional Chinese thinking. Theres always two sides to a coin, perhaps not 50 50. But there definetly is another side.

I wont say im innocent of all these sins either, because it takes two hands to clap. Maybe its a phase in which all human beings have to go through, the high the experience, the lessons learned. All by the hard way. We could always say who gives a f and walk away. But deep down, u will feel something.

Laugh and joke about it, theres always a time and place to have fun, but do bear in mind limits and consequences. For at the end of the day, morning, night, we are all responsible...

I dont wanna judge, i know whats right. I just wanna help. Neither am i looking down on others, i dont have a right to, cause we re all made equally in his eyes.

I want to help, because i believe there is so much untapped potential in us all...



Now here comes the tough part of not being a hypocrite. Heh.

But i believe through God, all things are possible =) Lets DO THIS!!

Wah chicken, tmr got some bball match, hope my team does well! =) Though we never once trained at all, haha hopefully we ll meet some noobs and own them.

Older guys and younger girls, i so get it now.

Whats most imprt to me now*

God is so Good

Only through him can i help others and do anything.

Though i live it on a high.

I know his Grace is always there for us.

Amen.