The path of recovery*

After SYF.

Everything goes to God. The glory, the tears, the thanks, the good and bad times.

People may talk people may question people may doubt and indirectly cause confusion.

But we know what we stand for.

This is more than an ordinary CCA.

Moving on....

Today was a fruitful day i must say haha. Woke up at 830 and went for Church. Hahaha decided to go for the earlier church service. Surprisingly enough it turned out to be, sad to say a bit boring as the 1030 service.

Well, after seasons of poning church for various reasons* I've guess that i ve been neglecting my religion for quite some time. As in like i know hes there but, i dont know guess i ve been super ungrateful. To put it in simple terms =dog*. Yeah i do pray and stuff but only in times of need and yeah i do it for others never myself. Sigh....yeah its mostly my fault for not taking the initiative and being irresponsible, but this church is just not working out for me.

Yup so i've decided to like get a couple of friends and perhaps instead of going to church, do cell together. Maybe that will help. I mean does going to church actually defines u as a christian? I personally dont think so.

Sometimes i feel awkward to talk about my religion, i mean, for gd reasons yeah i ll share and really talk for the greater good. I ll do it for their sake and not mine, thats why like my dad always tells me, Do as i say and not as i do. Lol a wonderful saying so i cant tell him , how come ur not being a gd example urself? There was period of time where i really really disliked hearing christian songs and going to people' blogs where they really sing praises to his name. Like i said, i ll gladly do the same so that people can have hope and benefit so much such words. Personally, i guess its going to be a long period of soul searching for me.

I do believe, just that i feel im being damn dog about this.

On the road to recovery hopefully haha.

On another note.

My ex maths tutor just had his first son and my cousin got baptised. Kudos man!!!!!!!

Oh and i finally gave my mom something today after like 16 years? Hahaha although it was from 7 11 haha damn dog! Hey its the thought that counts right?

Econs test tmr, oh joy!!! Basket, seriously hate to study!

Are there such things as bulky spartans? Just curious.......

Oh yeah, tried blasting, i mean attempting to sing, Nessum Dorma in my room just now. And my maid suddenly walked in when i was going to the high B part. Oh crap. The look on her face just made me feel like spearing her so badly. Basket!!!!!!!

No face liao.

6 days left*

After all that.

We can do this.

Come to the edge.

They came, and they flew.

I rant*

Rant rant rant rant....

After wed practice, i think i ve learned a thing or two from the teachers =)

B4
1) One and a half weeks from SYF
2) Our dynamics were not there
3) Our claps for Kari were horrid
4) We did perform that piece before
5) What does that show? Not being responsible? Not focusing? Not giving? Inconsistency?

Yeah, i really really wanted to slaughter them after practice during debrief. I really dont want the situation where people die just because others are not willingly to go the distance. I will not tolerate such nonsense from young adults.

And yet.

Encourage, and be firm.

My emotions nearly broke loose that day, thank heavens i didnt get a chance to debrief. Im sure a lot of people feel the same way that i did or maybe more. Heck thats just an assumption which i put a heck load of faith and trust on. I guess i ve been aiming for the wrong vision, Gold with honours. That is really the wrong aim. Guitar and dance got GWH, kudos to them , but Ishould not be affected. I mean, always look a the big picture, at the end of the day, what does the choir stand for? GWH? Always being the best for awards and recognition?

Truely, I learned a valuable lesson on wed, and that is to trust more. If God decides to teach the choir a lesson through defeat for SYF, who can stop his will? Tell me honesltly? Who can? So be it, after that, do we mourn and hang our heads low, do we indulge in tears, self pity, emo the rest of the year away? HECK NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

WE WILL PICK OURSELVES UP AND GIVE EVEN MORE SO TO GIVE FOR EACH OTHER AND MAKE BEAUTIFUL MUSIC TOGETHER, WE WILL FORGE BONDS THAT WILL LAST US A LIFETIME AND TRUELY REPRESENT THE CCA THAT WE LOVE* BY BEING LIVING EXAMPLES OF MEN AND WOMEN OF STRENGTH!! WE WILL PERSERVE THROUGH HARDSHIPS AND EMERGE EVEN IF NOT VICTORIOUS, AS A TEAM. THIS IS NOT A SPORTS CCA, BUT WE DESPERATELY NEED EACH OTHER, WHO CAN STAND ALONE IN CHOIR?? WHO CAN?!!!!!!??????

After some self reflection, i just want everyone to go through this stepping stone SYF, and come out after singing with the mindset "We ve done all that we can possibly do, the rest is in God's hands." No regret, no livng in the past. And if we have done our best, which has no standard ranking such as Gold, GWH, etc, the results do no matter. In this period of time, friendship is so so so so so so so so so very important. Individual want too, no one can ever force you to feel passion and hunger for it so badly that it just burns deep in our heart.

No more stressing abt the results, we just go in, give all we got, enjoy singing together, and leave the rest up to God.

However.

God helps those who help themselves*

And that is where i put my trust in from today onwards. All choir members will not fail in giving to each other and supporting each other in singing, this is not an assumption, this is reality. No more separation of J1 and J2, we are a team.

I just hope that everyone will leave choir one fateful day, as men and women of passion, integrity and love.

And most importantly, as friends =)

Heres some food for thought, though it may seem familar =)

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace;
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.

O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Amen.

God bless the Acjc choir =)

Hur hur hur*

Yawn.

A lot has happened since the last entry haha.

I guess so far my life has been choir-ing non stop haha, but its great. Really, when u enjoy something that u do for 3 times a week, it really gives u a satisfying feeling. Hahah, probably equal to that of gymming? LoL nuthin beats choir hahaha.

Freak, went out with Jackson, Soooowei, Yanni to go eat Yakun.

Ahhhh what an adventure.....its almost like a fairy tale with a happy ending haha.

One day, in school. Jerome heard Soowei n Reuben talking about Yakun. Rant Rant* They were basically talking about how it was so good and etc etc. Food tastes great, must go there for breakfast. So i was thinking like huh?? Whats Yakun?? Sounded like some jap place to me, so i assumed that Yakun was some jap place with affordable prices that served really really really gd food. Freak*

Damnnnn.....little did i know that Yakun was actually the name of some high class kopitam place which sold kaya toast, half boiled eggs and eh what u call it milk tea. Needless to say they were all so shocked when i told asked them whats Yakun?? Freak damn humiliating!!!!!! RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

So anyway, to bring the climax to this short Real life story, i went out with them to go eat yakun hahaha. It was not bad haha. However, stupid Soooowei blogged about me basket, i ll get back at her. Cfm!!! This came from her blog!


Funfact of the day - Mr Jerome Ng never knew what's Yakun until Today.
I swear he's the only person i know that doesn't know what's Yakun.
He thought it was some Jap restaurant. (My Gawd.)
So we brought him to Yakun for his very virgin Yakun Experience today.
He's the real caveman. Lol

After reading that, RAWRRRRRR..i feel my spartan blood in me boiling!!! Wheres my spear??? WHERES MY SHIELD?? WHERES MY RED CAPE??? WHERES MY!!!!!

leather underwear*

LOL

At least on the bright side she called me a man, if u take the cave* away that is haha.

Sigh, this situation kinda reminded me in chem class today. I fell asleep.....(DESERVE TO DIE*)...then when i woke up, Mdm asked us about something with H2 and adding it with Ni catalyst to an alkene.

"So class whats this reaction called? Starts with a R"

For some weird reason, i just shouted out my answer "FREE RADICAL SUBSTITUTION!!"

............. The whole class broke into a frenzy of laughter. Damn.....i could have sworn Mdm was laughing at me too =(

Lousy Sooooweiii had to add salt to my wounds by saying,
"Firstly Jome, free radical substitution does not start with a R, secondly ITS WRONG!!!!"


If i had my spear i would have slaughtered her on the spot!

Sigh, hahah actually come to think of it its quite funny. LoL!!

2 weeks b4 SYF.

Pressure, expectations, legacy.

Ladies and Gentlemen!!

Its show time!!!!!! =)

Yawn*

The lack of sleep is really taking its toll on me.

Theres really a reason why they say beauty sleep*, literally. The loss of eye bags, the reduction of the oil pores, etc,etc. Dammit..

A fine start to a wondeful year of music making i woud say =) Gd job to all the Juniors for their first public performance =)!!!!!!

The chem teacher played this song today in class during our break. Strangely enough, it felt extremely dejavu when i played close attention to the lyrics.

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take

And I just got to let it go

And who knows I might feel better

If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

No more waiting,

No more aching

No more fighting,

No more trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say

And in a funny way I'm calm

Because the power is not mine I'm just gonna let it fly

What can I do to make you love me

What can I do to make you care

What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there

Love me..

Really describes the long journey that i experienced last year. All the immature mistakes, the true meaning of emotional pain. Although looking back now, i know i was never really alone =), and if the pain doesnt kill you, it just makes you stronger.

How many times have you done something for the first time? Last week i tried para para for the very first time, my, it was hilarious....Though the circulation of my uber dancing video is quite disturbing i must say. I just wish not too many folks get a screening of it. LOL

Very interesting indeed, i was giving my mom some advice the other day, and I could see on her face that she was quite shocked at my maturity level, though at times, it does tend to decrease drastically haha. Rare moments indeed*

I think that one of the valauble lessons that I ve learnt is that, JC girls go for mature guys so act mature and they'll fall for you =). No no jk jk haha. Seriously, when you experience hardships and falls, it is rally no uselessto remain living in the past, but really, always hold your head up high and look forward to the future. After all, we are only human. Alwasy be positive thinking and give 100% in whatever you do. Even in the little things in life.

Maybe im saying this because i did badly in terms. However!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lesson learned, I ll work much harder the next round. It really did make me feel extremely disappointed, but really theres more to life than just academics, not neglecting them of course. Such as suntanning at sentosa, working out at the gym, spending quality time with the one you love. I really dont know, what ever makes your clock tick.

As Pastor Malcom preached today, talk is cheap*

Anyway some goals for the rest of the year.

1) Kill my Singlish (Its killing my grades seriously)

2) Be a better role model

3) Mug for As

4) Enjoy the rest of my JC life. =)

The last and most important of them all-----------Give so much more to my cca. I hunger for more, i always feel i can give so much more.

Thank you Lord for such wonderful juniors =)

Though sometimes i feel like killing them* =)

The path of learning*

3 Videos that i watch daily before i go to sleep everyday.

Mainly they are the 3 songs nessun dorma, ave maria, and time to say goodbye haha.

Sung by, jose carreras, luciano parvarotti, placido domingo (the 3 tenors), andrea bocelli and sarah brightman.

Thanks to these 3 videos i have been able to learn much on the aspect on classical singing haha. The sound they produce is very eh, fat, rich, mature and vibrato kind. Hmmm, maybe because they are for solo singing. In a choir i guess its different, cause every voice has to blend in so no one can always over sing i guess.

But then again for the overall choir sound to sound gd, the individual singers must be gd first.
Its really interesting what i can learn from them just by hearing, trying to mimic the sound, and observing their body movements. The dropping of jaz, etc, etc haha.

Zzzzzz hope one day i might be able to sound like them!!

The sound is extremely pure but different according to them. Hmmm..howhow??



When he sings the high b flat, he really opens his mouth, not a very wide sideways sound but a very full sound. It sounds extremely heavy yet its not flat. Hmm...it helps that he has a fat body lar, but his throat is really really open. Gd stuff. Haha.



When he sings a very high note for a baritone, he doesnt sound young and strangled, haha he can have vibrato for his high notes leh, awesome stuff!! Hmmm..anoher example of dropping jaw and opening of the throat. Also the lifting of the eyebrows. Interesting sound produced i ll say, its v high yet supported and clear.



Whenall 3 tenors sing the high b flat. It sounds v v mature. Hhahah hopefully one day (soon!!!!!!) i ll be able to use natural voice to sing it. Really amazing man...Once again the dropping of the jaw, and the full support of the diaphragm. Hmm, jose tip toes haha, maybe its some method of reaching it better.

But Luciano stil sounds the best haha. Well hes the fattest of the lot isnt he? Hahaha.



Ahhhh the transition from a chest voice to a high note, drop jaw, raise eye brows, increasing the space in ur upper pellet. Damn gd technique...shall try all these in toilet later haha.

I guess like classical singing is v different form pop, rock, jazz, blues. iTs us a pure sound with no slides in it i guess...oh and some vibrato too. Hahha yup, anyway hope one day i can sound like them haha.

Zzzz need to go dl videos of basses singing.

Abs Galore!!!

After reading Knock knock's post about movies and 300 spartans. I just you know felt so inspired to go research, and really pay tribute to the actors.

Its really wicked to get such monster ABSSS!!!! Seriously speaking, it is really incredible what the fitness instructors in hollywood can do to work miracles to one's body. Dunno about females lol but in the the movie, 300, every single spartan had killer abs.

Seriously, abs to die for.

Rawr.

And without furthur ado..

Lo and behold!!!



Killer abs man!!



Looks familar?? Have i seen this sight before in front of my mirror?? Hahaha jk jk jk jk jk..

But of course there is no point paying tribute to them if i dont try the work out myself right? HAHAHA.......im a dead man...

"300-rep Spartan workout."

(Trust us, 100 reps is plenty hard.) (*2)
It goes like this: Without resting between exercises, Butler performs
25 pullups,
50 deadlifts with 135 pounds,
50 pushups,
50 jumps on a 24-inch box,
50 floor wipers (*3),
50 single-arm clean-and-presses using a 36-pound kettle bell
25 more pullups.

All this, in addition to utilizing other unconventional yet equally taxing training methods, such as tire flipping and gymnastics-style ring training. Sound like hell? It is. In fact, upon receiving his marching orders for a Spartan workout, one of Butler's costars told Twight, "It feels like you just killed my dog."

Well to me..sounds fun =) shall try this soon.

Probably end up paralysed in the gym or something.....

Any takers?

I should be studying* Stupid white boy!!

Ok ok ok ok ok, i always knew that bong was a dog. But this time hes really a real dog.

Confessions of a teenager dog*

He stole* vitamin C tablets when he put stuff back into the HR. Leheng, Cherie SCOLD him!!
He took home a whole packet of leftover free drinks that was meant for the choir, and literally enjoyed it during CNY. For himself and his guests.
He steals my food all the time.

Disadvantages of being a bong.

Stuck with one hair style all your life

White skin. Bwahahaha. I would to exercise my lit skills haha, crap....better not say, terms are just like next week. =( Anyway, from a certain junior bass called kenneth " Wow Bong ur so white u literally blend into the background" Which one?? One may ask, its the white paint of the wall near the baby pool of the school. AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.. damn bad lar, actually, no no no, great one there ahahah!!

Ok ok enuff abt on of the dawgs in my life.

Went back to Acsi for a friendly game of J2s v.s J1s. It was suppose to be a friendly match, but as usual. Ok side track, i have this certain theory that when guys play sports right, somehow they just become damn hyped up and really engrossed in one thing only, winning. Thats why like when we play with girls/ against girls, sometimes i pity them cause they, sadly, get hammered as though they were men. Its damn ungentlemanly lar, but oh well whatever it takes to win RIGHT MEN?? Anyway that was what happened in our J1 vs J2 match. They were all guys btw.

I was quite nervous cause i like didnt play for a month already, but still i uses my superior tactics and intelligence to outwit and beat those J1s!! Hahaha, no lar no lar jk jk, the 4 of us just played damn dirty...Seriously i was quite shocked too, the pulling of jerseys, the pushing off using both hands, the fouls we dealt...Ouch man!! It really really damn foul haha, nvm lar do what it takes to win man.

That brings me to another point like, do we become someone us in the heat of the moment? I know i do, only when it comes to sports lar. I remembered one time when it was a 3 on 1 situation under the basket, me being the one lar =), heheh, i shot the ball up
against the 3 noobs!...and i missed. But i got my own rebound and i completely faked my defender, it was great man watching him jump in the wrong direction, but i completely screwed up my shot. Freak freak!! It was really so frustrating......and i cursed damn loud. Sometimes seeing my other side is quite shocking, the cursing and the trash talking. Sigh..

I guess thats the bad part of human nature, when we become so engrossed in the moment example anger, and we express it out in some form, lets say a blog. Its really a taint of what people will think of us i guess. Looking back at what we have posted, maybe i ll ask myself "oh man did i really post that?" Like i said the heat of the moment really makes us lose all of our moral values responsibility, integrity, etc...

Ok thats just some random thoughts..Back to bball haha. Yeah i really played v dirty with my man, dunno why but i always like to mark the center, although im not say v tall....cough* coough* He was this J1 guy that was like 180-185 like that, but i just kept shoving him off balance everytime he got the ball, so literally rendering him useless. Hahaha, kudos to the J1s though they really put up a fun fight, except like they didnt dare to play physical with us cause i think they respected us. Hey it was on that fateful court where i played till my sec school uniform turned brown, but more importantly where i found, as all bballers say, the love for the game. I owned* on that concrete man haha.

Oh yeah the last game J2s were down 9-20, the J1s needed just one more point, but we fought back and won the game 21-20 YES!!!!!!!! Oh man victory was so sweet, haha and i scored the last two balls for us!!! Uber happy =) Just like the NBA man just like the NBA. =)

OH YES YES.... all the J1s had the same comment for me, " are u sure ur in choir? u look like ur in canoeing..." Hahahahaha, my head's feelng pretty big right now haha, fire away at my ego gentlemen!!

The same for choir i guess haha, except i dont play dirty, and it only took 1 year to obtain the same feeling.

Doesn't it really rock when u really give ur best for something, and u get what u want?

All we need is a shot of humour*

Its 1 am. I was doing chem when this mosquito came and bit me on my arm. Spent 5 mins chasing it around the room trying to kill it. Gee it was fun.

CJC rockafella tmr...YESH CANT WAIT FOR IT!!! Moshers and body surfers invited =) Sometimes u just need to let ur hair down, i feel lar.

It been a great week so far, terms are coming, i havent started mugging, my grades are dying, my eyes are tearing, econs is killing. Wow an attempt at poetry eh? Must be my natural tend for literature, hey thats why i take H2 right? Hahaha.

BBq on sat
Basketball competition during late march. (Die i seriously need to train)
SYF
AEWF
A levels

Time is not on my side. I ll give it my best shot though. Zzzz feel really guilty for not really paying attention during G.P class today, sigh, very very very bad. This should not happen again.
Excuses excuses..

After hearing Mariah Carey sing the second last high b on the paino towards the right hand side for o holy night, my jaw just dropped. Incredible. Go watch on youtube, its freaking insane!

DCT: Sometimes God does bless some people with both the looks and the voice
Me: Really meh, i think shes a bit bulky what.
Me: How how?? David??!! Why is it we arent blessed to sing until such an extent? Rawrrr

I could sense the sarcasm and the evilness lurking in his head even though hes all the way from NY. Sarcastic man. (i have certain doubts of the man* part though haha)

DCT: Im on my way there, i dont know about you though.
DCT: ahahahahaahaha

Me: Whatever man. Ouch that was low.

Oh well, u know the saying, keep ur friends close keep ur enemies closer =) Hahaha. Apparently Geoffrey tried singing the high notes of mariah carey. Ouch* Imagining it now* MY EARS MY EARS!!!! I CANT HEAR I CANT HEAR SOMEONE CALL the ambulance!!

LOL.

Sometimes i feel like a 13 year old trapped in a 17 year old's body.
I shall change so i wont ever feel that way. Its wrong i guess, especially when people judge you for their own opinions.


I believe that everyone was born differently but with their each own individual unique talent. I have so yet to find mine, whats urs?

The sacrifices that we make for each other, not ourselves will benefit us all in the end. Its the team that makes me proud of the rectangular badge on my left pectoral everyday, not the position or title. Without the team, i am nothing.

Completely nothing.

Hardcoreness*

I ve tasted emoness. Damn it was sure as heck bitter.

He Shu Wei burped in class today, and it wasnt one of those cute baby burps, it was one of those loud ear pounding, mind blowing, screamo, uncivilised, no mannered, un-lady like conduct.

BURPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

That brought down the house, or should i say maths class? Man simply that wasnt lady like at all. I just spasmed in my body, lucky i ve been trained* against people.

BURPPPPPPPPPPP, what sort of genre is it exactly, not rap, definetly NOT CHORAL!! Not pop, not opera...hmmmm how about like animalistic? ANIMALSS!!!

Hahaha but it was quite hilarious but it was very very very off...

Nvm, kudos to her still ahahahaha. I have only one word for that man. NICE!

DCT : U guys are still so young, emo what emo, 17 18 only
Huey Hian: I prefer just to be happy
MaChenZhong: I scared people say what immature

Me: Well it is kinda true we are kinda young for this sort of relationship lar, but why should we care what people think? Of course we cant be stubborn donkeys, but if u feel that special something, go ahead and pursue it. Just dont fall in love with the idea of being in love. Whtever man u know, its ur life. In all situations, just be mature abt it. I believe.

By the way, cute means, UgLy but adorable. Crap i ve been called that tons in my life, i better go for some extreme make over man. LOL LOL.

Cute just cute.

Haha nearly fainted during rehearsal today, was trying to sound more bass, but the pressing down and fighting to keep on pitch proved too much for me. Well partially cause i didnt eat much lar also. But it does feel gd to know u ve done what u could in a rehearsal, of couse, u cant say its ur best, cause we all dont know when we re giving everything we ve got.

Why is it i always blog abt my cca?

4 months or something like that left.

Every cca day is precious, every second is like water in the desert.

I believe, hope, trust and pray... Lord make us instruments of thy peace.

Let ur voice come out through our mouths, whenever and where ever we sing.

Where did I go wrong,

I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

This short year*

Apparently time seems to fly faster now a days.

My J2 year will be coming to an end pretty soon, worse of all my cca time too.

Ah well, the show must go on.

Its really quite stupid to say one thing and do another, I ve made so many countless mistakes during the courseof this year already. Maybe thats because i havent yet ganed the friendshipof people yet, i dont want no title, just to be able to lead people to the right thing. Grey area though...

Haha i think im really suffering from the lack of sleep,


So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Rawr.

A blessing in disguise indeed*

Ironically, interesting news reached my ears.

The damsel in distress found two golden knights.

Leaving me the orge going omg.

When I first saw you

You smiled at meand stopped my heart as I stared.

Gave me endless daydreams

girl I miss you so

You don’t know how much,I like you.

Even though you said no

I will grow through this pain.
Girl for you I will change

To be a better man

Now we don’t talk much

girl its not your fault

Time really did
Drift us part

So now on this special day

I just want to say

Girl you are so so beautiful

As time carries on

I will grow through this pain

Girl for you I will change To be a better man

Once you’ve found that girl

You’re homeward bound

Love is all around

Love is all around

I know guys have fallen

On stony ground

But love is all around

Girl your like an angel

You stretch your wings

Keep me safe from harm

In pouring rain

Give me endless comfort

Girl I fear the cold

please complete my soul

with your smile

Even though you said no

I will wait for that day

Girl I still like you and I swear I ll change

To be a better man

This is for you. If u ever read my blog then, yup these verses are forever urs. Better man by Robbie Williams. Im sorry i cant find the strength to sing for u on v day, i respect ur decisions, just that i wished u had told me.

Oh Lord im doing all i can, to be a better man*

Finally*

Zzzzz stupid blogger kept giving me problems with what sign in and other sort of nonsense.

The week has been rather hectic, did'nt even have time to arrange maths tuition and i got chem and maths test next week, zzz im so gonna die.

Anyways, like the past week has really got me thinking like what i i originally planned to do for v day. Oh yes some random shits haha reuben is the most emo man i have ever met in my life haha. Think hes influencing me hahahaha.

PROBLEMS : I really dunno man, like i changed the lyrics of the v days performance for her, and then all of a sudden the feelings gone. Something new comes up, and all of a sudden things get complicated for me. Its damn wth. Freak u think u like somebody but all of a sudden u like somebody else??

1. Reeks of desponess?
2. People think ll ur some hunter, keep switching targets
3. Where is ur loyalty at?
4. What on earth are u gonna do?

Aha the negative effects of maturity, the opposite sex suddenly appears more appealing. Yes yes, the irony of things.

RAWRRRRRRRRRR!!!! Really dont know what i should do, need some advice b4 i screw things. Oh goodie even worse all of this is one sided so like im the one that will suffer at the end of the day.

At least its cure for my bastard taste, i quite glad that this time its for the right reasons, or so i think lar.

Well lets just see how things go about, maybe every thing will be a blessing in disguise?

Oh yes saw this uber ad at orchard that day.



Norbit is the name , SUFFERING/COMEDY/HOLYSHIT is the game. Hopefully i can go with michael and ivan and reuben and we can have a gd laugh.

Oh yeah meet a new friend this week Amy, haha shes justin's friend, freak man shes a damn gd singer. Apparently she has performed at loads of places b4 and she has her own band, her uncle's a music producer, did i mention shes a very gd singer? Really watch out for her on v day yall!! Anyways, she complimented me on sounding like Mr Clay Aiken, hahahah my head swelled pretty Big. After that, i went home to dl solitaire, tried singing and the only sound i got was me cracking like nvr b4 and my older brother going "JOME SHUT THE **** UP LAR!!" Holy cows!!!! Scared the clay aiken outta me..LOLLOL.

Oki gotta rush to church now, from this uber cold lan shop hahaa.

Chow* Anybody else wants to watch Norbit with me let me know =)

Stupid Cupid shoot somebody else can or not??

Random rantings*

Sighhh..

School has ben getting more and more boring man seriously. The long lessons, the lousy attempts to mug, the horrible personal moments ofmorning ensemble. ARGHH YESYESS!!

Today was a very bad day for me personally for morning ensemble. It was before i went to the mar ri la kit ta ber sa tu, that part. There was like flam in my throat lar, and for the rest of the song i was just doing an Ashlee Simpson, lip singing. Arghhh it was so so so so bad. Freak i was dmn angry at myself lar, damn no integrity lar. Baketttt...

Really thankful for people like Clean who always sang louder whenever she heard me falter and not be able to sing high notes at all. Arghh im so so sorry. I even starting sleeping without air con the night before morning ensemble so that i can sing better. Crap its like shes aways the one who pulls my fats out of the fire. Not literally lar but u guys know what i mean..Cause like she is on my right during morning ensemble. Arghhhh damn irritating!!!

Ok ok change subject for now..

Its been my second week of non stop gymming with Ian and i think results are begining to show haha. Im able to bench press my own weight like 6-7 times. Yayness =). Hahaha sometimes i wish choir was everyday also, so fun so fun =) Though i must admit we sound like a animals in the gym, with our heavy pantings and our occasional manly shouts to force our bodies for that very last push. Ahhhh.....

Other than that 2 very important events are coming up for me, wait make that 4 events haha.

1) Cross country!!! OH NO I NEED TO START TRAINING!!! Anyone wanna go run 5km plus??

2) Swim P.E (Like i said to Ian, this i what we live for!!) LOL =)

3) Senior junior outing which im organising-----Its at Sentosa btw!!! Better go do more reps ahhahaha.

4) Valentine's Day Duhhhhhh Obviously right??


Oh right im challenging Shu Wei the Track captain to a javelin throwout on friday. Hahaha hopefully i ll win her lar, its my virgin experience and shes been training since sec 1 in this so called"specialised sport". Loser has to carry the winners things for one week hahaha. I have full confidence in myself that i ll be able to beat her =).

Think the only reason why i l lose is because i wanna b a gentleman towards her and let her win me. Even now as i type, half of my brain is laughing at me. Basket all watch out...tmr is D day i ll beat her!!!

Sigh why me*

I don't really know why but i ve been feeling rather frustrated these few days.

Maybe its the lack of my maturity or its the people i ve been hanging around with since i was young.

The boy in me never ceases to die.

I just have a VERY hard time with certain Toms, Dicks and Harrys.

If this was a basketball game i ll be like hurling curses to express my anger and frustration. No mercy no hesitant.

However this is a different ball game altogether.

Thats it thats it thats it.


On a lighter note kudos to Leheng for doing a gd job with the auditions, sorting out those gazillion stacks of forms and calling people till late at night. =) Really hands up to you!! The rest of the com too who sacrificed precious sleep to call those J1s and chase them to come down for choir auditions, and also all the choir members who helped out on duty!!! Gd job people =)

Choir men and women indeed*

School

So once again its back to the tucking in of looose and baggy shirts, the rushing of buying milo bottes and waffles before going into lectures, the usual drugs and other sweets to keep us awake..

School yes yes...

Guess like today was quite fun haha. Sang choir songs early in the morning with kerryn heath bong, rayston and merryiln. Ah think i spelled her name wongly..nvm haha.

Seems that Ian and I increased our gymming sessions to practically everyday and after today, it was going to be more intense.

Ok ok to all those who know nuts abt gymming let me intro u guys haha. People basically gym wither to look gd or keep fit, most of the time its for reason number one. So lets take me for example me, i weigh at 69 kg so i should be able to bench press around my own weight, hence this is what we call the weight strength proportion. So a guy who weighs at say 63 Kg but he benches 90 kg, so according to the rule, he is much stronger than i am.

That is what made Ian and I feel like rubbish today, we went to gym, and saw this rugger guy who was lean an skinny but he benched like 90 kg for his last rep, it was literally unbelievable man seriously. Really made me feel as though i was gymming for the very first time, Ian too felt lke pang sai. Hence we mutually decided to gym practically everyday haha...Bye bye to the long breaks and HELLO gymming, swimming and suntanning haha.

Actually being in a co-ed school is quite stressful, last time in acsi it was like today's v day?? Are u serious?? Ok lor i think we should go taupok cum strip someone. Onzz!! I mean i practically wrote xmas cards for choir folks last year that is really virgin experience for me. I mean how did i know that the season was going to be so mushyy?? I just wanted to go and sing haha.

So like this year v day must quickly go and plan and showthat im not some miser that just taks and takes but gives too....mah fan!!! But a little voice says in my head could be fun* hahaa..

Zzzzzzzzzzzz What fools these mortals be!!! Then again its more like Monkey see monkey do ahahahaha =)

Of course being a fanatic of my CCA i must make some comment every blog post right?

Ands so for todays comment of the blog Ultimately when i leave this CCA for army or etc etc, what i want to take away is not the singing part, but rather all the values thatit has taught me through living examples. Not saying that the singing part is not important lar, but the values i ve learnt to be more gentlemanly, passion, integrity, etc, will last me for a lifetime. Thats the reason why people come back to serve in this ministry of God i feel. I hope for all choir members to live, breathe and be true examples of such values haha.


ZZZZ talk so much dont even know whether i can just do all of what i ve said haha. Ahhhhhspeaking of which i think ive become niao* ok heath calls it anal. Like sometimes when we just randomly gather and sing any songs, i get rathered ticked off when people dont sing properly and anyhow sing, or even break line or dont observe dynamic changes. LOL seriously a bad thing haha. Niao man seriously niaoo..

Oh yes KUDOSS to Reuben for getting his nice brown adidas shoes being stolen from outside his house haha. He suspects its some banglah worker hahaha. I say lar Gentlemen N1!!!!


Zzzzz...its getting pretty late..LETS GO OUT =)

Jk

Emo newbie

Been feeling really frustrated over the past rehearsals.

I dont know why but..i think it was God's plan..i had a chat with the teachers on saturday..

All my worries and troubles came out..

Maybe its because im always trying to do things myself and not share the load..

The tears just came..

Its sad to see mistakes being repeated so many times. Its sad to hear certain remarks, its sad to feel like im the only one..

Its really pains my heart when i myself dont live up to certain standards as a choral singer..

Even more so to see my friends...

Comingconsistentlylateformorningensemble,notfollowingthe1015minutesrule,
notfollowingtheconductor'sinstructions,notcominginontime,talkingwhilerehearsal,
notgivinglinetoaoldpieceifmusic,wastingteacherstime,etc.

I know out here some one else feels 110% or more of what i feel..

Im sorry for being emo but i really really really like my cca...

I just want to sit on my rooftop and cry my heart out...

These 4 months are going to be the most memorable time of my life..

Monday blues*

Seems like my monday was going from bad to gd to worse to worst. Karma man serious.

It all started with a 1 30 am sleep and a pathetic 4 hrs 30 mins o sleep.

And so 6 10 came. I woke up and swallowed, the feeling was as though i was eating glass for breakfast. Dressing up for school and travelling there i only realized that i was suffering form major flam and thorat problems. Liddat how to sing i ask u?

Nvm i endured and on the way up to stage sir came to asked me if anything was alright with me on the previous saturday. I was quite shocked and yet touched that sir was probably one of the few who could tell whether i was troubled or not, also by the fact that he does care, for each and everyone of us. Once again a million tributes to the teachers who keep giving* So anyway i talked with him and yes its true that i hadcertain problems with a certain fellow.

Only my Lord knows how sad i actually feel when i hear the phrase " ur must be great friends" God only knows.

So took over a late ivan, half the mind to give a gd scolding for coming constantly late. Singing personally was horrid for me, but the ensemble was gd. Great job ensemble B =)

After having lessons with friendly teachers, i went for tanning with aa4 guys and played an excellent game of water rugby. Haha Xiang An was dominating with his humongous pectorals =)

Ended school and went for Sihan the prince of pon bds. Lost my phone on the way to Carls juniors which i heard is very very unhealthy haha. As we ate there a bunch of SA J1s came over and we had half the mind to cheer WHO U WANNA BE A AC WARRIOR!! Lucky our brains prevailed and we decided mutually to start playing digimon again haha. Excellent =)

From there on i received numerous scoldings from me mom becaue she was pissed off with the service and i became her punching bag. Seriously, i was being scolded like mad, from one destination to the other and it really took a lot of strength from me just seal my lips.

Oh well in the end i got a new phone and its not bad apparently haha.

Seems that in Jc a lot of people tend to emo emo...If u ask me for my opinion? Only emo when neccessary and the rest of the time suck it up. Huey Hian asked me abt her, well i ve just decided to make her v day special. Sing song, give flowers,etc,etc. The main point of this is not to pop the question, rather to show you that i have the mentality that even if i do get rejected. I have succeeded in driving my point across. Even though u have many guy friends and make my efforts seem feeble at time, especially when it gets so so so frustrating, i still do like you.

I believe in the end its ladies choice and should not be the guys.

I think my english is getting better haha.

Results of being thick skinned*

Anyone up for tanning?

Memories*

All men/women who have achieved great things

have been dreamers.

Open your ams to change, but please don't lose yourself

You are what makes who you are in sickness and in health

A friendly atmosphere has made you to be

Your character is in charge and will control your destiny.

You'll go somewhere you've never gone, you'll make your mark again,

You'll reset your standards, and sure will make new friends

As soon as today is yesterday your heart will always give

I hope you won't regret today, cause your future longs to live.

If our paths don't cross again, I won't forget this day

Cause I'm afraid of change, I'm scared to shift my ways

My eyes will see things they've never seen, but I've always be here

This time that counts as your moments gone will teach me not to fear.

You'll look upon your life and see familar grounds

You'll hear the call of memories and recognize the sound

All the lives you change will make stars disappear

And as you're settled down, you'll realize you've never left here.

2006 My seniors I thank you all*

Shanghai*

Oh man school is in like 12 hrs away and i still have loads of homework left to do arghhhhhh. Seriously dont know how im going abt to finish it damn.

So spent 2006 in shanghai and really the food there was uber gd and best of all cheap haha. Apparently the china folks are really reall clever at imitating stuff, lke if Gucci asked them toproduce one million shirts they would produce like one million 500 hundred ad sell them at cheap prices.

Shopping there was wicked man haha, me and my bro made suits and it only costed us like 50 sing dollars man cheap!!! Although i would have rather prefered to spend the new year in Singapore with my friends aiya nvm lar family time. Im just gg through this period in life where friends mean more than family sadly. Well at least i admit it right?

Oh man another year. Seems that my cca saps up like 60% of my total strength, 20% to studies and 20% to fun and games. Ok ok maybe 10% to studies basket. Hmmm i need to do something abt it. Landed in Sg last night and immediately choir work. Hahaha cant wait for our juniors really, the passing on of the passion is really not easy, frustrating at times but yet at the end very satisfying.

2007 here we come!!!! LoL hope i dont die man seriously...

Ok ok here some uber pics from the land of the china men, LEARN UR CHINESE MAN CHINA IS THE COUNTRY TO BE IN THE FUTURE!!

damn photobucket is takng quite long zzzzzzzz...ok really really long...Oh yes forgot to complain, basket!!!! Went for hair cut today and it was totally horrible!!!!!!! The aunty cut my sides till my skull can like be seen arghh, oh man what a way to start the new school day man aargh dammit..Sigh forget it lar at least wont get caught for hair for quite a while. Basket.



At some ancient chinese place cant remember the name haha, hmm? basket all nvr smile due to the sun i think haha.



Simply supermodel posture by my bro man hahahaha.



Acting english men like and being snotty haha. Apparently we didnt think much of the nice structure behind us.



Sipping away for the new year haha 2007!!! This meal here costed us 1000 Sg dollars btw. hOly molly!!!



And finally a family portrait....Zzzzzzz why mom and dad nvr smile one? Sigh oh wells at least me and my bro were giving fantastic facial expressions hahaa..

2007 lol im gettin nervous abt it haha.

The carrolling season*

The hrs of training, the amount of taxi money spent on gg to school and cmoing home, the amount of money spent with choir friends. Time waits for no man and just like that believe it or not, the carrolling season is over. Really every moment spent was so so so worth it seriously.

Its really late so i should just wrap it up. Happy birthday to Reuben!!! And Merry Christmas to one and all!!!!!

Like i said to some people lar, really "Someday soon we all will be together, If the Lord allows" We will nvr again sing as a full complete batch for that song next year and so to every singer teacher in the choir---Thank you all so much for all that u have done in contributing to the choir in any way possible. Basses tenors sops altos, passion integrity and love.

With the tears rolling down my cheeks how can i ever give back for such a wonderful experience?
Thank u all for making my Xmas very special*

And now here comes some humour...apparently some people wrote abt me in their blogs, courtesy of Marcus who found them i dont know how haha.

http://huiling-.blogspot.com/2006/12/morning-xueyang-came-to-scare-hell.html

Whoever blog this is i quote*

acjc choir was good. and cheryl is infatuated with the bass soloist who happens to be the president of the choir according to dextre. well, elena declares that he has some eyebrow problem though, anyhow fang dian.. hahas. i guess only cheryl and her bei dian dao.

Apparently they took a pic of me and the caption was*

yes.. this is the soloist who fang dian and dian dao cheryl.. he's cute looking but cheryl, you dont have to go gaga..

Yes i must admit i have a certain eye brow problem heres another blog i also dont know how Marcus found it out haha.

wendy asked us who wasthe soloist for the winter wonderland song,and nx said it was tht guy who kept smilingand twitching his eye brow. The onewho stood at the end of first row.lolz, nx said he looked as if he was seducing ppl.


Ok ok i really was not intending on Seducing anyone (hello brenden n melissa? =) and sorry lar if it happens its all part of the performance and enjoyment factor let me assure u haha.

Thank u all so much =)

Chiao*

Finally get to play*

Today was fun..

Went out with Xiang Pui, Samuel the dog and Boron the guy who knows all girls damn.

Played badminton haha was uber fun, considering i havent played it for a year and a half, ok lar still got some skill there haha.

Whew lucky wasnt wearing school colours, actually was wearing the P.E shirt with the acs crest missin. Argh was cursing like mad very loud everytime i missed a shot.

After that all the 4 of us could convers abt was nuthin more than sexual hints sexual hints and more sexual hints.

Woahhh ur badminton racket very big isit? Mine bigger and more powerful.

Seeing a cat in the rain. Woahh a wet p****

Drinking bubble tea. Woahhh eating all those balls eh?

Crap my legs are damn tired after badminton. Woahhh which leg 3rd leg isit? LoL damn weak ah.

Eating at ikea. My meat balls are bigger than urs. No lar pls mine are soo much bigger.

Anyone wants to do grace b4 we eat? Do has many meanings btw. Pls have a clean mind.

When the word shoot comes into topic. Woahhh dont anyhow shoot ah must aim..

Protein shake*

I guess guys will be guys. A strange tendency, JC girls tend to like older and mature guys. Maybe they have something against childness?

Anyway played loads of shoot shag marry. The number of names that came up was just so horrible. Seriously....anyway i dont think any guys are mean like girls like to say we are. I prefer to say realistic. Cant handle the truth? Do something abt it.

Example im fat in some areas? I go do gym to solve the problem.

Knowing the problem and not doing something abt it, thats just weak.

argh im being damn mean................damn insensitive..but my eyes are precious to me..oh myyyy here i go again...Apologies apologies.

Guess this is what i get from spending a day with 3 guys who have special thinking* from normal folks and who have bastard taste too.

Being realistic, hmmmmmmmmm, maybe thats what i have become. Its like black and white right? Just like jessica alba is hot and brad pitt is handsome.

Was kinda shocked today some girls whom i thought were pretty were not when i asked my friends. Guess we all have different taste.

Suddenly feel the unbearable urge to sing RAWR!

Sometimes i feel my role has made me a lonely person....but thats cause i try so hard to do the right thing not the popular thing.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR


The battle between childishness and maturity continues*

Time is cruel*

Bwahahahha....

Sorry didnt know how to start off my blog entry so that was it. LOL. Ok managed to get some photos of like non other than me and other people haha. Ok that sounded quite egoistic haha, from ccaab camp again haha and the evening when we watched the 3 choirs. =)

So without furthur ado....



Boys will always be boys =) Damn Hussein is strong haha. Not that im not lar haha oops..



PATTON MY GROUP!!!! RAWR!!! WE ROCK PLS!!



Hot buns anybody? The girls didnt want to get their lips burned =)



More fun =) Apparently Xiang An injured his **** LOL



The hockey captain Francine showing the guys the stuff shes made off. Damnnnn 1 girl 5 guys haha shes gd pls!!! Pimpstress*



OH HO eXXXclusive shot pls! Haha thks for ur advice Francine i ll promise to try to keep my head on all the time =)

Moving onto the choir performance night haha..



Ok Bong said this shirt was a fashion disaster..Chen Zhong said it was damn Kathy..Lol Honest opinions anyone?? Haha was taken inside the concert hall..TSK MARCUS!!!! haha.



Me and Kerryn ^^



Simply me and the Cherie haha..BASKET



Me and Chen Zhong singing a duet. Piece entittled "Who can sing lower?" Hahaha this is what B2s look like when we try to blast our low notes hahaa. Except for Mark of course too proozz. Haha join the club albert u T1 hahaha. =)

Went out shopping with Candice yesterday. Was uber tiring pls haha walking her walking there haha. Shopping was fun lar i guess haha. Saw some nice Zara, U2, Topman n other clothes haha.

Im starting to think i have some sort of an ipod chip implanted into my brain seriously. When like i see some eye candy in town its like "Mcfly WOAH SHES OUTTA UR LEAGUE UR WASTING UR TIME CAUSE SHE LL NVR BE URS" Basket man seriously. Sometimes when i see some like some people "love nvr knew what i was missing but i knew .......i found u" Damn out of point lar pls..Other times when im just stoning "Dont u ever for a second get into thinking ur irreplacable" What the...Worse of all sometimes at the most inappropriate situations "My milkshake gets all the boys in yard damn right its better than urs"

Seriously no comments.

Apparently this was the farewell for Gina's year. Watching it really made me felt so emoo, like what sort of video will my batch be producing? Its really true, what the video says

YOU KNOW WHEN U FOUND IT,

CAUSE ITS SOMETHING U LEARNED,
CAUSE YOU FEEL IT WHEN THEY TAKE IT AWAY

ACJC CHOIR 2004-2005

THANK YOU FOR THE MEMORIES

Passion, integrity, Love

Let the singing do the talking =)

What a day*

Sunday was sooo borringggg. Thank the papasans and mamasans for the Tv. Whew.

After church where i had communion, pretty cool stuff btw, went to eat famous beef noodles with family and friends. Wanted to pang seh them for pool but stupid chen zhong said "Sunday is family day i think u should too". BASKET!!!! K LAR K LAR family family lar. Basket. Boy was he correct.

Went home to watch tv after and watched MTV yeah.

It was showing Tata young's perfromance, and i just realized that she is actually quite hot. Damnnn.

Its like watching her grow, as in, ok that sounded wrong but nvm, watching her grow from alike one song to the next, one album to the other. Its like her style is damn show a lot of skin, acting sexy and making guys drool. I used to think she was a dumb girl. But like guess shes not, all Tata fans give me a high five!!!! Ok lar guess she could really improve on her stage presence more haha, like move a bit more be a bit more natural on stage, cause she had only two dancers. Somemore her songs were like 'U got my emperature rising"," U can look but dont touch", u know so like these kind of songs guess u have to act more more more sexy? Aiya shes gd at that i think, her first debut succesful song was none othre than sexy naughty bitchy anywayss.


When all guys hit 13 and the twin engines down there start churning out testosterone, guss we all see girls in a different light. When we hit 15,16,17,18, its full power down there and all of a sudden girls seem like totally different creatures. Thats when all guys are vulnerable to a thing called Love. AWWWWWW as it sounds, the fact remains that the deeper u go, the harder u ll fall. Do love in movies really come true? i hardly think so...

Some phrases i have picked up this year-

"Eh think ill wait lar"
" Its really they dont see the little things that we do to try to make them happy"
" If they dont know what to do then just wait, but not too long"
" Arghhh we ll damn sad I ALSO SAY!"

Personally, i ve rejected people.....in basketball that is. The feeling is just so wonderful, slamming ur hand down on the ball when a person trys to shoot it, watching as time slows down, the shock of horror at on ur opponents face as u grin. And after the rejection i ll scream at the person as everyone else goes-------- OHHHHHHH OHHHH!!!

However taking the word rejection in other contacts. "The feeling is just the ground opens up as u fall, or ur heart feels a crushing blow, or the world spins around u." Its a lot worse than in bball.

I say just be mature abt it and face it there are other things better in life than bgr. I ALSO SAY.

But the truth abt it is YEAHHHHH RIGHTTTTTTT....

Damn these insensitive girls*

Guess our only consolidation is that we can say to them "HUH! ur not the only fish in the sea pls" So mean*

Unless they are really the ones u want lar...in that case. Damn these insensitive girls*